where are you my Mr. Pumpkin ?

Happy Halloween 

love is just  a word
nothing's gonna make that person you need love you
 except,
for  that bitch who always gets in the way.

have a great weekend fellas,and tonight gracia and angelin come back ! yayyy! so many things to hear from them. miss them so muchh!!! :)

♥

♥

♥

this few days i'm watching my fair lady (korean movie)

lovely movie and i spend a pack of tissue to watch this movie,huhu..

everyone is preparing their halloween party,so where should i go?

i'm just looking for my Mr.Pumpkin.

mid test is over,and feel so free! but project(S) is hunting me. =='

enough for today,in process making interactive multimedia project. terrified!!!!!!

♥,mena.

 

please love me or i'll be gone

when wake up my sister suggest me a very good song,its all out of love by soluna. an old song but i love it so! and today is lovely sunday.. :)

fyi,mid test is coming,still no preparation to study. *sighh

ahh,my besties will leaving tomorrow. they have their SOT from their college and they have it in Singapore. dank,so nice!!  and he will leaving too. i just wish you guys have a nice and a safe trip. (no conference in bbm with them for a week,sob sob**)

i was try to not write about him as long as i could stand. & maybe that is the easiest way.. i know i'mjustasillygirl! (aww!)

anw,i have a new photo..

i don't wanna f a l l

because i  d o n ' t  know
if you're there to
      ---- >  c-a-t-c-h me.

Remember the secrets we shared?

Remember how much I knew you?
Remember when we promised nothing
would come between us, & we would
be best friends forever?

Remember when you came to me in any situation?
Remember how much I loved you?

 
do you remember?

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NO MATTER HOW YOU FEEL
you should a l w a y s remember who's important in your life because there is always that

:c e r t a i n::s o m e o n e: who will be there for you {[n o m a t t e r w h a t.]} It could be a best friend, a special someone, p a r e n t s, relatives, even p e t s , but those people will a l w a y s be there for you. Even when you are feeling;;
ALL ALONE. 

 

 all i want to do is just forget you! (if i could,i will..)

enough for today,and i can't stop listening all out of love by soluna. :)

♥,mena.

girls day out. :)

too lazy to blog today,but i got nothing to do,so i decide to write a line and share some picture (also quotes) i ♥ quotes :)

today i spend my weekend with my best friend. i know you guys want your name in here,tehehe.. they are angelin and gracia. had a lunch at cupncino, angelin borrow and teach me how to use digital SLR and eat sate in car,yeah a lot of things we did just now.

and now,i'm home! good to be home!! :)

today raining again,and i never can stop to say that i love raining. i'm addicted to rain.

anyway,i don't know how to mad but,gracia you make my car's smell so weird!!!  :p

                                                  

Maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone.
Keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this;
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now, I had sworn to myself
that I'm content with loneliness.
Because none of it was ever worth the risk...
Well, you are the only exception.
You are the only exception. 

 

I am an open book..
printed with invisible ink.
you either flip the pages assuming they are blank.
or try and read between the lines.
and discover my secrets...
Choice is yours.

3 meetings to go,not yet start my interactive multimedia's project. someday i really want to complain about itnb lecturer,but let me write in here.

Monday- William Wijaya (SQL server)

-. our class never understood what the taught. like yesterday my friend ask something,then he check his computer,but never answer what my friend ask,just like pretending. he so wish that our class noisy and nobody ask him question because he afraid he cannot answer it.

Tuesday - Robin Loh (Technical Operation Research)

-. actually i don't have any comment to him,but sometimes he teach too fast and force us to understand,even sometimes we not yet and still try to understand,he next the topic.

Wednesday - Thamrin Kwan (Visual basic)

-. i think he is a good lecturer,he know hoe to teach,start from where,not so fast in teaching and he know how to teach step by step.

Thursday - Rejeki Ongsa (Interactive multimedia)

-. this will be a long long long complain.. i don't whats the point of he teach about,he just teach about theory,and theory. but the project,he never teach the step,and meeting 8 he want we make the story board. he just give us an example. what for? all we want is he open adobe flash,what the first step we have to do,not just say your project must be interactive,bla2.. don't expect too much if you never teach us how to make. every semester i should going crazy about his project!

Friday - Sanif (Computer Networking)

-. not bad teacher,he likes to joke and make the class more relax. but,this is my bad,i don't really understand about this subject. but i'll try my best. :)

                                                                                                                                   

I'd like to make myself believe;
///// that ( planet earth ) turns slowly.\\\\\
It's [hard]to say that I'd rather (stay awake )
when I'm (asleep) - - - > Because my dream 

... are bursting at the seems (♥)

ok,finish complaining and i should end with bye. but anyway,try beyonce's song - honesty. nice song! :)

♥,mena.

ps: I hate it when people create rumors just because they are jealous.

gitchi gitchi goo~~

Elthon John said : " sorry seems to be the hardest word."

Mena said : " goodbye seems to be the hardest word."

and now i'm off, running in the pouring rain,
and i scream to my neighbors and the whole
world and everyone who bothers to listen how
much i love you at the top of my lungs, hoping

 [o-n-e day, you'll hear me t o o.]

Sorry Brain
[for overloading you with thoughts about him]

Sorry Eyes
[for staring at him everytime he comes into sight]


Sorry Nose
[for smelling the sweetness of his colonge everytime he walks by]

Sorry Tummy
[for getting butterflies when i see him]

Sorry Knees
[for getting weak whenever i talk to him]

Sorry Feet
[for running after him when he's already gone . . .]

i don't mind if you ignore me,but gimme a second to say this (someday)

i know this relationship can't work out,i'm just hoping for nothing.

my friends said that you are not good enough for me. and i was thinking,yeah they got right!

everytime i want to say goodbye,you come and cheer up my day.

or maybe i'm not suppose to say goodbye to you?

idk.

just that,and take a good care. :) 

 Regards,

mena.

 

this for you. ♥ 

♥,mena.

song in my soul.

recently played in my playlist :

• buckcherry - sorry (♥♥♥)
  
• pink - please don't leave me
• kelly clarkson - already gone
• hillary duff - come clean
• daniel beddingfield - you are not the one (acoustic)
• iron & wine - flightless bird,american mouth
• lady gaga - fashion
• lady gaga - paparazzi
• lionel richie - i call it love
• james morrison - please don't stop the rain

things i want

wishlist ♥.

- Canon 1000 D

- Gain weight!

- Purple room

- Get over you?

- Apple macbookair

- Flight to Paris!!!

- Coffee maker

-A lot of colorful flat shoes

- 170cm tall!

- Long,thick,black hair

- More Jeans shorts!

- Black Eyeliner!

- Puppy!

- More friends!
                    

 back to Monday again,wuahhh lazy to enter Sir William's class today!

my sister just call me and she ask me to go to watch Miss universe! yayyyy! :)))

Excitedd!!!

upload the picture soon,fellas!

♥,mena.

gone too soon.

You came into my life;;
Now there's the door;;
Just walk right on out;;
Don't wanna see you anymore;;

I'm done with you're issues;;
They're no longer mine;;
I still cannot understand;;
How you're not getting the sign;;

I wanted you;;
You had your chance with me;;
You didn't want me back;;
It's your loss, buddy. 

 

sorry,but i have to blur your name. 

or maybe delete your name.

 & I secretly ^LOV_E losing my voice...
it gives me a reason to keep quiet.

Why is it that everytime i start to get over you...

You start to notice me.?
 

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today:

the robber was freaking me out!

be careful when you bring your bag,keep it save!

and,happy birthday Johan

may this birthday bring joy and happiness

wish you all the best! :)

have a nice weekend,fellas (!)

♥,mena.

 

 

fixing a broken heart. ♥

Let me introduce my new bestie in M-town,hahhaha

She super damn funny,and she good in photography.

Her name is Angelin Tjonadi.

Every night always bbm with her and gracia.

Angelin's nick name is kecoak

and

Gracia's nick name is cicak

ha ha ha ha . .

I don't remember when we know each other,so do her. lOl

Angelin Tjonadi. ♥

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yesterday was a great day,meet with some friends and laugh out loud! :D

actually today i'll have some food at cup&cino with angelin and gracia,but we cancel it because one or two things. 

anw,next time ok?

  The Perfect Boyfriend..........................................



Girl: Do i ever cross ur mind
Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Choose--me or ur life
Boy: my life
The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says...
The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind.
The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.
The reason I don't want you is because I need you.
The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left.
The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you.
The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you.
The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life

♥A Perfect Guy

• give her your hoodie even if you go to different schools

• give her a big t-shirt of yours to sleep in

• leave her cute messages

• kiss her in front of your friends

• tell her she looks beautiful

• look into her eyes when you talk to her

• let her mess with your hair

• just walk around with her

• forgive her for her mistakes

• hold her hand when you're around your friends AND in private.

• let her fall asleep in your arms.

• stay up all night with her when she's sick

• watch her favorite movie with her

• come up and grab her by the waist



Remember This:

• don't talk about other girls around her.

• if u love her others shouldnt matter

• when she's sad, hang out with her

• let her know she's important.

• kiss her in the pouring rain

• when you fall in love with her, tell her.

• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved anyone else before

• answer her phone calls no matter what



Guys repost as: I'd do this for her.

Girls repost as: Perfect boyfriend.




if you don't repost this in four minutes you will lose the one you love.




If you do repost this in four minutes the one you like/love will:

-call you

-kiss you

-message you

-get online and talk

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 I am NOT one of those girls that you can play with. If you want one so much, go buy a barbie!

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& so the lion
fell in love with the lamb

what a stupid lamb.
what a sick, masochistic lion

click here!

 i do ♥ this quote,ever! :)

and i want to watch newmoon badly!! :(

enough for today,nothing so special.

and.. ahh! i just miss something,did i?

i just want to say,i'm not your mp3 downloader,ok?

♥,mena.

sickness.

today i feel not so well,flu and sore throat attack me.. :(

very suffer,until swallow saliva also feel really pain!

oh Lord !

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i can't wait for tomorrow,cause my braces will be released,yayyyy! :))

and tomorrow night will attend jovi's sister wedding, 8 of us will take permission with Sir Rejeki,yeah at least we've tried to ask replacement class,but he doesn't allow it.

one question: why someone that i consider as a best friend still can tell a lie to me?

i won't write down her name in here. but i think when she read this blog,she will know what have she done.

the truth is,whatever you do,it's not my problem,as long as don't ever lie to me.

if you think that i'm not good in treat you as friend,then i just can say i'm sorry goodbye.

i know it's not easy to make a friendship,and i think i still have another friend that maybe better than you. goodbye friend,i won't ask you anything anymore because your answer is a LIE !

It's hard to loose a best friend.

They know all your secrets,

no one knows.

Some how she leave without a good bye.

And you don't know where to go.

Some how she  come back without a hello.

You don't know what to do.

I don't trust her anymore.

So good bye my ex best friend.

enough for today,just feel unwell. i hope i can recover soon! :)

bye for good.

♥,mena.

sparkling(heart)

please don't go crazy when I tell you the
T R U T H .

 seems like everything is going so swift. i hope this just the beginning,not the ending.

hmm,i will check up again this month,yeah..i feel a lot much better now,no pain when i breath,and i hope doctor give me a good news. :)

still not yet decide what date i will go penang.

don't worry fellas,i won't share about him again,i know it's f*ckin bored!

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but i still love you.

 You cant  stop the future,
You cant  rewind the past,
The only way to learn the secret,
_{.... is to press play.}

♥ ,mena.

unexpected things!

hello my happysad friends.. :) :( 

i hope you said that 3 words to me,not him not anyone.

last night i got an unexpected news,which is someone that i consider him as a best friend say 3 words to me,and he make me shocked! :O

i do apologize,i can't make this relation worked.. i just treat you like my best friend.

:)

if i was too stupid to wait for him?

♥

i Know, im not perfect ;

& that i may not have beautiful long blond hair. or dreamy blue eyes. i may not have an ass like a model. and i may not be happy everyday. my hair may stick up [ 99.9% ] of the time, and my socks may not always match. i may not be the smartest girl, and i may not always remember things. i may not always be on time. and i may say things thinking i mean them, even when i clearly don't. my hair may not [ always ] flip perfectly, and my outfits may not always be the "cutest." my stomach may make strange noises in a silent room. and my shoelaces may not { always be tied } my makeup may not always be perfect, and my mascara may smear at times. my skirts may not be the shortest ones, and my shirts may not be the most flattering. i may not be on the cheerleading squad, and i may not be popular. i may be clumsy, and trip over things that you can't see. but i'm telling you [ o n e t h i n g * ]
that i love you. i love you most, and i love you b e s t. and if there is anything that
i am perfect at       then that's ; loving you. more, and more. every { m o m e n t } of
» every single day. no matter what. and if that isn't good enough for you then -
i don't know what is.

 Maybe i'm not meant to be over him. I mean,
look how many times i've tried. maybe its not
working for a reason.

                                                                                    

i still love you.

♥,mena.