Attention,please?

firstly,i'd like to tell you guys, esp my classmate that, me and Susento are just a friend,a normal friend. no more no less.. and what's the problem if someone bought us an ice cream? come on,its not a special thing (i guess). so,i think its CLEAR enough for you guys.
Thank you for your time.

im out,


*kissonthelips*

lovee, mena

my last hope

firstly,happy holiday everyone..

but i dont feel like in holiday.. :(

listen I'm done with your lies,
done with your bullshit,
just done with you.

the worst part is, everything I just said was a lie
I wish I was done with you
but secretly, a part of me still holds on to what we had
&wishes in the end we will be together.


i dont have any mood to blog,i just feel so bad right now..

just bye..

*kissonthelips*


lovee, mena

key to my heart

~so jst let me try.. i'll show you why you're so much more than enough~


long time no blogging and feels my blog is so dead!

maybe some of my friends know already about my spooky story.

im too lazy to tell about it,cause i dont think its so important.




today he really made my day..
this afternoon he brought me a baskin robbins's ice cream!
yayyy! thankyou Susento ! :)





Sometimes, You gotta run away so you can see who will run after you
Sometimes, You gotta talk quieter just to see who’s listening
Sometimes, You gotta step up in a fight just to see who’s standing by your side.
Sometimes, You gotta make a wrong decision only to see who’s there to help you fix it.
Sometimes, You gotta let go of the one you love just to see if they love you enough to come back to you.


enough for today i think,happy holiday my classmate,and you.. ;)

*kissonthelips*

lovee, mena

little escort

~dont hold on because you think there will be no one else~

sorry have to be away for several day,cause i got nothing to share..

anyway,tomorrow will be my last holiday and back to college.. miss my classmate! :)


my 5 days holiday i spend mostly with jenny corina. wednesday was an election day,then she ask me to watch RobinHood. thursday i was accompany my sister to have her new hair cut,then i hang out with jenny again.. she is nice person :)

and today i'll spend my saturday night at home. lovely home.. :)

Lifee.
Is like a roller coaster.
It has its ups and downs and twists and turns.
You know that in then end it was a fun ride.
No matter what happens you know that

You will always have the person
next to you, to help you.
But most of all....

You know you had fun and it was worth it in the end.

ahh,i got nothing to share anymoree.. so just bye.

have a great weekend. :)

*kissonthelips*

lovee, mena

HELL to the YEAH !

ok,i feel quite boring because of this problem. its my little poor ex boyfriend again..
last night he text me (again) and as your request i wont put your number here.

May 7,2010 23:46:38

Firstly, im sry for being lebay n post smthg rude but u dun need to post my number on ur blog coz i got a few numbers who always miss call me at midnight n at work time. for god sake, i need to sleep n wake up early to work. also some ppl when they down, they will post smthg lebay n it will be gone with time. if u say to said infront of ur face,will u listen to me? u even dun want to reply my sms,if u think what r u doing is right things, go ask ppl who r not ur friends bout it. good bye.

May 7,2010 23:59:48

Ah yah its very cheap when someone try to hack fb just for that. PS : sry if it's not u

and this is my reply :

May 8,2010 00:08:18

i dont think i need to reply ur unimportant text since im somehow trying to manage my life back (except this one). And IF u think those number(s) who misscall you at midnight/work time got ur number from MY blog,or ME HACKING ur fb,PLEASE do THINK TWICE before u say anything. bye for good and try to get a life.

he reply again (sighh) :

Well sry if it's not from u,but it start a day after u post it. good bye for good and good luck too.

hope you read this line,hanz.

if you want me to listen to you,ok.. meet me at college stairs. but one thing you have to know,its just embarrassing yourself. but if you want to,you still can meet me there.


dont hope too much that i can treat you like friends. even i feel disgusted to see your dick face! *oupss,sorry to mention harsh word.. but its damn true!


i want to be your gf because i just feel pity on you,little poor boy. seriously,what can i expect from you?



Lollipops turn into cigarettes.
The innocent ones turn into sluts.
Homework goes in the trash.
Mobile phones are being used in class.
Detention becomes suspension.
Soda becomes vodka.
Bikes become cars.
Kisses turn into sex.
Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground?
When protection meant wearing a helmet?
When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties?
Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and Mom was your hero?
Your worst enemies were your siblings.
Race issues were about who ran the fastest.
War was only a card game.
And the only drug you knew was cough medicine.
When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut.
The most PAIN you felt was when you skinned your knees,
and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?
And we couldn’t wait to grow up?



anyway,i do really craving for something sweet like..

ben & jerry's ice cream, macaron, OREO (oh GOD!), and marshmallow mix with hot chocolate milk.

saliva keep dropping! -______-










too sweet to be true! u____u


will tonight be my another sleepless night again? if yes,then it will be my another sleepless night again.

last night totally cant sleep my eyes wont close even i cover it with my pillow.
feels like insomnia!!!! :(






gonna end today's blog.

have a great weekend,fellas!

*kissonthelips*

lovee, mena

Say it to my face, not through your status.

~you cant face the world if you're not being you~



yesterday ricky was text me and ask.. what do you do when im not around? so i just simply answer wait for you to come back.. and he just reply me with smile :) hahaha..


anyway, this semester i will have final exam at 2nd August,it means i must join supplementary cause i still at HK.
sighhh,it wont be a nice trip for me then..cause definitely i will always keep thinking and frustrated how im gonna have my exam alone! and the highest score for supplementary is C is im not mistaken!





im totally messed up today,cant sleep all night long and i just sleep at 12pm until about 2pm.
i dont know,but i keep trying to close my eyes and count the sheep,but the result is zero. i dont know what happen to me. and it such being jet lagged! sucks!!!

hmm,i found this true story..

Her name is Katie Kirkpatrick , 21 yrs old. Next to her is her fiancé, Nick, 23. This picture was taken prior to their wedding January 11th, 2005. Katie has terminal cancer and spends hours in chemotherapy. Here Nick awaits while she finishes one of the sessions.


Even in pain and dealing with her organs shutting down, with the help of morphine, Katie took care of every single part of the wedding planning.Her dress had to be adjusted several times due to Katie’s constant weight loss.


An expected guest was her oxygen tank. Katie had to use it during the ceremony and reception.The other couple in this picture is Nick’s parents, very emotional with the wedding and of course to see their son marrying the girl he fell in love with when he was an adolescent.


Katie, in a wheel chair, listening to her husband and friends singing to her.


In the middle of the party, Katie had to rest for a bit to catch her breath.The pain does not allow her to stand for a long period of time.



Katie died 5 days after her wedding.To see a fragile woman dress as a bride with a beautiful smile makes you think, happiness is always there within reach, no matter how long it lasts.

Life is short. So love without boundaries. Laugh without control.
Live like it’s heaven on earth.

Complete photo series can be seen here.

thank god its Friday, and ahh! almost forget..

well,dear my ex..
as i know,we broke up in a conscious state, and why now seems like you blame on our decision?
i dont know what or who are you talking about on your facebook, IF its me just take a short moment to stand in front of the mirror and ask, am i worth it to be her boyfriend?
i bet the answer is NO !


say it to my face,not through your status.


and, i dont fucking care with you anymore,
so just shoo shoo from my beautiful life..

life will be much wonderful without you.

bye for good.

have a great weekend fellas!! :)

*kissonthelips*

lovee, mena

he is HAWT !

who is he?
he is Robert Downey jr. i adore him from his movie, Sherlock Holmes and Iron Man! im melting,seriously.. he is not so handsome,but he is charming and cool.. i like his style very much!
and who knows he is 45!!!! oHmyGOD!



melting completed 100%

anyway,last night when movie is done..i go to toilet,but there's no one in there.
only
the third room is closed,and i can see from the below,someone is there.. but no voice,and she didnt move. i was feel suddenly frightened and leave toilet soon.. and tell james and his friend. they said..why didnt call me? i will accompany you.. wth!


uhmm,last night i was about told ricky to not think serious about his feeling. have to admit,yeah.. he said he likes me. and just sorry,i think you are good enough to be my friend for now.
and we can just let it flow. cause im not ready enough to have a special relationship. i have thought that sometimes make me scare to fall in love.
not because i just broke up but uhmm..
so many things happen around me that makes me aware and scare to have a special relationship with anyone now,seriously..

i know you can give me everything,and i feel comfort with you.. when im sick,you come to my house and take care of me.. i can see from your kindness to me,that its not only a friend but you want more than that. but i just cant make it now.
i know you are quiet fair person and you should know what i mean. we are still friend.


anyway,he is going to have his europe trip with his friends tomorrow.
have a save flight and enjoy!

A guy had a crush on this girl. He follows her wherever she goes. One day the girl noticed & asked the guy:

• Girl: Why do you keep on following me?
• Boy: Because you’re so pretty and I think I’m falling in love with you.
• Girl: Really? But you haven’t met my friend yet. She’s prettier than me and she’s right behind you. The guy looked behind him but found no one.
• Boy: Are you making fun of me? There’s no one behind me.
• Girl: No, but if you really love me, you won’t look back.

i dont know why suddenly im feeling blue..

i should prepare myself now cause at 3pm ricky will pick me up to his house,he ask me to help him to pack his stuff for his 2weeks europe trip.. :)


have to end today's blog fellas.
have a very great day fellas.

tu vas me manquer


*kissonthelips*

lovee, mena

wavin' flag !

There are just certain things in life that are better off unknown; ♥
things you wish you never asked, never saw, never heard or never even felt.

i just browsed about nail art at my favorite website.
and it makes me feel...
ahh,tomorrow im gonna buy nail art stuff!
they are too cute to be true!
check this out !!!

I used to believe in forever
but forever's too good to be true.
I’ll make a wish on every star
but hasn’t done much good so far
I don’t know what else do to,
except to try to dream of you.



anyway,i have a very good news,hehe sandy have been move to morning class,and it means logitech wont have such annoying guy like him,anymore! :)
bye for good,dude!
hope you change your habit when you meet your new classmate.

cant wait my class tonight 7pm.. :)
miss them a lot and i wanna know my mark for last semester..




anyway,congrats to my sister's friend.. Mulista Mu. she is the winner of Celebrity Model Award 2010. you deserve it,seriously..
and congrats to Felicia Anjani. she is the most favorite in facebook.

ok,im out

*kissonthelips*

lovee, mena

dont put your dream too high.

In life we do things. some wish we had never done and some we wish we could replay a million times. but they all make us who we are.

ok,he is totally ruin my mood. somehow,im really fucking hate people who like to exaggerating.. swear to GOD! i just know from my friend,his facebook status was so EUWH and OH GROSS!
this is what i call RUBBISH !

and lemme tell lines to you,poor boy.. sorry,but you dont have anything to show that you are a good boyfriend to me. and i just feel that you are totally gross! dont you feel ashame?
and this..

keep on dreaming,ok poor boy.. ?

"jangan buat malu dirimu sendiri"

ricky was read this rubbish text and he said, if i were that guy i will feel so fucking shame to ask like that.
come on,where did you put your uric shame last night?



you cant give what i want,so why i have to put my hope for you?




anyway,dont talk about rubbish thing..

ricky give me present again..
its necklace from gordon max.









thank you very much for the present,
but still we are just friend.
and he really cheer me up and makes me forget about those rubbish above.



should end today's blog and..
im going to prepare dinner for him
all i can cook is only spaghetti seafood.
:)
it taste nyummy! he he he..


have a great day fellas and tomorrow im gonna meet my fellas!
damn,i miss them so muchhh!

*kissonthelips*

lovee, mena.

broken string..

today i've learned something :
Although someone you love already with you in a long time,it cant guarantee he/she is a good and loyal person.
for you,my friend.. dont love too much with your lover.. i know many things about your boy.. what he do and what he did. and i learned, how good is someone,dont ever put too much TRUST to them. i wont tell you,cause i know soon or later you will know the truth.



why does everybody lie?
you know, the bad guys
lie to get in your bed,
and the good guys lie
to get into your heart.
-Brooke Davis// One Tree Hill




anyway, my class will start this monday.. feel so excited! and meet my fellas for sure. :)

go to google.com then type : "who's the cutest?" and click i'm feeling lucky.
see the answer. ♥



nothing to share,just this fellas
have a great weekend..

*kissonthelips*

lovee, mena