beginner.

hello my happysad friend.. :) :(

i'MJUSTaSiLLYGiRL
^{who likes this boy way too much.}

:(

Her; heyyy
[I hope he replies]
Him; hey
[She texted me (: ]
Her; what’s up
[He answered back (: ]
Him; nm, hby.
[Just thinking about you]
Her; nothing.
[Just thinking about the way we were]
Him; cool
[I miss you]
Her; so how’s your girlfriend
[ I wish it was still me]
Him; great
[You were better]
Her; that’s nice
[I hate knowing you love her]
Him; yeah
[What ever happened to us?]
Her; well I gtg.
[I love you]
Him; bye
[I never stopped]
 

just capture pictures of my sister and after edit,you can see below..

taddaaaaaaa...

edit by me,mena. :)

♥,mena.

rockin' monday!

hello my happysad friend.. :) :( 

nothing to share,just want to drop some quotes and picture for you,especially for you,my ♥.

The minute you’re ready to tell me you love me,
* I'll drop my world to be your girl.

But until then, I'm sorry...I can't play these little game anymore

 

 assuming he liked me
....probably my biggest mistake yet....
...assuming i had a chance with him...
e v e n ♥ b i g g e r .

♥,mena.

.the.end.

hello my happysad friends. :) :(

last night i watch "GRACE" movie,not really good movie i think,but yeah,it's disgusting!
http://www.grace-themovie.com/








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today i went to brastagi supermarket with effendy,jovi and denny. we bought some food and drinks for our bbQ tomorrow. (pictures will coming soon ^^)

just now when i drive to home,one song remind me about him again. Oh,God! why i still can't forget about him? just give me a second,please? don't make me hate about this life!
i wish i could delete his msn,skype,bbm,phone number and of course his face!
nothing to share,just this and bye..

♥,mena.

iwishicouldforget.

hello my happysad friend. :) :(

today preety same like other days,just at home,browsing and online.

and i found something that according to me this picture is awesome!!!!
it's from brides on 22 (Willy & Pheliany's Prewedding Session)


i ♥ this one.



this one also ♥




and this is my fav! ♥♥♥



i just realize that i feel so damn lonely! really need friends,family or all things that can make me laugh out loud! ha ha ha . .
i wish someday will come. :)







nothing to share,and feel so so so so blur today.
oupps! i still can't forget him,sh*t!!
but ok ok,relax. i will try my best to forget you.
it's sad,but i think it's the best way.




find someone to hug hug,hi3..





i think it's ok today,wait for my next blog fellas..
♥
♥
♥
♥

♥,mena.

gosh gosh!

Yesterday is a tiring day. spent all the day in sun plaza,what the bored! round here round there just bought my sister's pants and my mom's shoes. i never bought something when with them,they never ask,and when i said,"mom,that's nice!" she just answer,"nope,some more you have a lot of clothes,what a waste!" but when my sister said,"mom,it's nice!" she will answer,"you go try first,if looks ok then buy." 

 can you see the difference?



and at night,i said to her,"mom tomorrow i want go out with gracia." she said "why you'd
prefer going out with gracia rather than me? just now ask you to go sun plaza you don't want,but why you so happy when go out with gracia?"


let me answer you mom,i don't know why actually but i just can say i never feel happiness with you now,after dad pass away,you change! and it makes me sad! i never feel your love again.

actually i have many things to share,but since i share about this problem,i don't have any mood again! hell yeah! one nice quote for me.

[ everybody want to changes the world,but nobody wants to change ! ]

i miss you rain, i miss your smell ! :(

~I love walking in the rain, 'cause then no-one knows I'm crying.~

goodbye happiness,welcome sadness. :(

i wish this is just a dream,and when i wake up,everything is gonna be alright.

♥,mena.

i'm hanging on to the same old song!

hello my happysad friends. :) :(

so happy today! ha ha . . why? because today no traffic jam at all! hurayyy! :D and today is James's birthday,he treat me and some my friends at Cambridge-Jing. the food was nice,and we really have fun there,even not all logitechians join cause some of them go to brastagi. but,really happy! after that,i go home and blogging! ha ha ha . .







next friday me and my fellas will having a bbQ. yippiee! :D
feel excited! and maybe we'll not sleep AGAIN! ha ha . .
will put some picture,soon! ^^


hmm,
think about my future,i still don't know what should i do to be. i really want to work like my sister,but sometimes project from college makes me going crazy,and i just can do that project in weekend,which is the result not really good for sure! last time i work at PT.KOTA MAS PERMAI. firstly still feel so awkward,but after 1 month i know them and they was so friendly! but,unfortunately i must resign in third month because my bad healthy and of course because i think project is more important ! so i resign. the director was so kind to me,always ask me to take lunch with him,he can be my grandpa. 84 y.o but still strong and healthy. hehe.. every month he gave me increase salary but not for other. maybe because he and my mom know each other. i miss my collague,maybe sometimes i will ask them out and it'll be a great reunion!




awww (!)

~You are the only person that can make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.~

-A

♥,mena.

psycho ?

hello my happysad friends. :) :(

today i'm like polar bear. ha ha . . why? because i sleep all the day,it's raining and the right time to sleep! hahahaha . .

ZzZzZzZzZz . . .


tonight my sister will attending her colleague wedding. i choose a dress for her,make a curly hair and it looks cute .. :)


nothing to share today,just feel so blur and still trying to forget this f*ckin' feeling. maybe someday when this feeling fade away,you'll come and say how much you love me and at that time maybe will be too late or maybe i still saved that feeling in my heart.
you never know.







i'm just so sad...
i don't feel like starting this week altogether.

i want a window,i want a car. i want to get away now!
hello? does anyone care?!


ahh, i forget something. for "F" you are really such a psycho! i don't need to tell in here. but you really sucks,ahole!

feel so blur about dslr camera. want to buy but i don't know which one the best. i only have budget 7 millions. :( and some my friends recommend me some option like:

canon 500D



or . .

canon 1000D

which one better? i should learn more before i buy. hmm,thanks to emily. even i don't really know about you,but you are so kind! :))

~You never know how to live until you know what you'd die for.~

enough for today,doesn't feel quite OK after blogging,but hell yeah! i never feel how exactly is.

happy holiday my friends! :)

♥,mena.

smile for me. :)

~just because someone doesn't say anything,

it doesn't mean that everything's ripe and peachy and damned fine.~
♥




last night i keep thinking,why i should have this feeling to him? does he have the same feeling with me too? maybe being friends will make everything fine. no love,no tears and no pain!
hell,yeah!


your love come and go away as easy as reversing your palm.
i never understand how love works!
♥
♥
♥


i hope by making friend every single time will be worth,i don't need to waste my time to always thinking about you. i really hope i can!





try to forget you,but why keep thinking about you?
what should i do the best?



i think i will stop today's blog. my heart getting blue and feel so empty. :(
wait for my next blog.

♥,mena.

adores. ♥

~♥~♥~♥~♥~

what and who i adores ♥?

logitech fellas. ♥



purple apple macbook.








purple bedroom ♥
i want it badly. TT





and myself. ♥♥



i have one song from pussycat dolls,it's hush hush. nice song! he he . .
and this is the lyric

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs
i never needed pain,i never needed strenght
My love for you was strong enough you should've known.
I never needed you for judgement
I never needed you to question what i spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.
And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything that you can do.
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so look at me , listen to me because,

*.I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
i never needed words, i never needed hurt, i never needed you to be there everyday
I'm sorry for the way i let go
Of everything i wanted when you came along
But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated
I know next to you is not where i belong
And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so you will listen when i say baby

back to *

No more words
No more lies
No more crying ooh ooh
No more pain
No more hurt
No more tryin' Oh Oh Yeah
Because

back to *

and start from tomorrow i will busy like hell,browsing material for my interactive multimedia project. and Jesus,please make this project worked! :/


good night fellas. and A,i will always ♥ you. :)

“You’re shy, in person. But you’re you, in texts and IMs.

If you want us to happen, if you want us to work, we should at least try to talk to each other, in person.
That’s why I’m here. I’m here to save you. Don’t worry.”


-A

♥,mena.

pissed off !

today was a super duper bad day!
why?
because is traffic again! flood everywhere,and when i stuck in jam,i "kebelet pipis"
huahuahuahaua.. really pissed me off! :(

but anyway,i won't share about traffic jam,or flood,even kebelet pipis. :D

today i hang out with gracia (my very bery bestie) hi hi . .

♥ gracia stefani.♥


we talk and share a lot of things at starbucks cambridge,and gracia ask me to pick acquainted with someone,and i don't know what his name,his voice so small,and hahaa he looks like "alung2" lOl

we did a very bery fool things.. ! you know what,we plan to try mie sop at UMI,but she don't know where the place,then we round and round and round again! until gracia said like this: "mena,if one time again we cannot find the place,you can slap me!" hahahaha,i laugh out loud,she's so funny! :)

the story doesn't stop until here,

at lasttttt, we find where is UMI and across UMI got people sell mie sop and okay,we order 2 mie sop. and. . . Jesus! the mie sop is so "yackssss!" so bad! even very worse, the soup so cold,and i didn't taste the noodle even the meetballs. and i pay and leave that mie sop. i won't go there for twice ! for God sakes!!! :((

currently i really crush on bling bling hard case, but it's so so so expensive. (the real swarovski)
i wish someone buy for me,ha ha ha . .


hoammm,sounds sleepy hehe. . alright,i'm gonna end this blog with good bye.
have a nice day and have a great holiday. :)

♥,mena.

keep you much longer.

any idea for what style of hair that i'm gonna cut later? sometimes feel "urrgghh" thinking about my hair,so hard to handle. after i wash my hair,i need to blow it dry and roll it. it's spending hours! urrggh!! :(
i will pay any saloon if they can make my hair look gorgeous! how much they ask,i will pay ! seriously..!



like this. ♥
(but i think it's impossible)


today so many things pissed me off,such as;

• traffic jam because of the traffic light near thamrin street all not working,oh,G!

• XL and telkomsel flash internet connection!so damn slow!! :/

today i learn about binary tree traversal,quite difficult for me to understand. but,no worries,i will learn it as much as i can! muahahaha. . . :D

you know what,i don't really like katy perry but one i like from her, her song! "thinking of you"
a litle out to date song,but i damn crush on the lyric, some are like this;
'cause when i'm with him i am thinking of you,
thinking of you, what you would do
if you were the one who was spending the night
oh,i wish that i was looking into your eyes.


maybe today's enough,i have to go to airport,because dreamland is waiting for me. ha ha ha . .
have a very good night fellas. :)

♥,mena.

unreachable.

this is my third blog,so far I'm still excited with fill my blog. he he . . :)

today i went to dentist and doctor said after idul fitri my braces will be released,hurrayyy! :D
i don't know why i cried out loud just now,maybe because too much problem in my life that i never told to anyone. and yeah,like usual i cried out loud and listen to my ipod loudly while i'm driving.
anyway,i don't want to tell much about my problem here,but what i want to write is about purple again,am i too much? *o*
i spent a lot time to browse anything purple. :) and this what i got..



i wish i have it. ♥♥♥








and this. :)





this is my fav. :))


i don't know why purple color can make me crazy!! lol
but i don't care,i still ♥ purple.



today's weather so nice to sleep all the day. but,at 7 i have a class and meet my fellas again. ha ha ha . .
and i was thinking,how will i spend my holiday on 19th September-26th September ?! ~no idea~ T.T



maybe today is enough for me to share. have a good day! :)

♥,mena.

fall for you. ♥

why i put the title is fall for you? 'cause last night i send him this song. i like this song very a much! :)
forget about it,and let's talk about my semester 3 result; it was a bad bad even it was the worse! i got 3 C,1 B. little bit disappointed. but yeah okay,next semester i hope will get a better mark,jia yoo! :)

today i'm gonna meet apau at starbucks cambridge,discuss a little thing about investment. ha ha ha . .
(can't wait my hot green tea latte) ♥♥♥♥

Tazo® Green Tea Latte

so many things i would like to write in here,but let me takes my time to take a bath. :D

have a great weekend,fellas! ♥

xoxo,mena.

purple.addicted. :)

I don't know why i'm always get bored with something even something new! like my new javelin,i just bought it a week ago,but i now i'm getting bored with it,huh!?
but,i never get bored with anything purple i admit that addicted to purple nowadays!
i bought opi new polish [give me moor!]. it's dark purple.
and today i spend all my time to browse all about purple.. :)
and one more,i really crush on Sabrina's song in her album "i love acoustic"
her voice just so simple,and it's really acoustic! :)

okay,i think today's enough. hope that i wont getting bored with my blog. ha ha . .

♥,mena.