i ♥ you like i ♥ ferrero rocher.

you know what i really wait for? yeah,im waiting for my birthday.. 4 months again,still long but when it march you will think,why day gone so fast... but sure i will pass this new year,and his birthday on january. :)

hmm,even i have some problem nowadays,it wont makes me forget how he cheer me up.. thank you,A. you are so kind to me. and i hope november will end with love and happiness. and i hope this is not a dream. he he he . .

nowadays i really addicted to ferrero rocher,i ate a lotta this chocolate and i cant stop it. but i wont stop,cause i loveeee it (!) 

and i miss rain fall..

 

today i will spend my last weekend at home,too lazy to go out,
and just slacking on my bed. :)

idon'twanthimtobeperfect

i want him to l a u g h at me, trip me & help me up, pick me up
and then throw me in the pool, make me watch football for hours
and take me to the arcade and beat me in air hockey
most of all, i just want to be [ glad that he loves me ] ♥

im finding idea to make my birthday invitation.. any idea?

just wish you guys have a very good weekend. 

mena,signing out

♥,mena.

hate november?

you were online. we hadn't talked since what went down a few days ago. all of my friends had told me to be strong. so i sat there for ten minutes. just sat and sat. then just as soon as i was gonna break. you signed off.

is that a sign, or what?

this problem will never end. i don't know why she keep pestering on me,i don't know who is she and whats her point to make me like this. she is too much! and thanks to my friends that always supporting me.

and you,maybe you don't care with this thing. and hell yeah! i never ask you to care about me anymore.

no mood in blogging,and just wanna say have a good day all! 

♥,mena

am i suppose to say that i hate november?

i don't know why,but why the end of this month i just have those problem that makes me so so hate november..!?

vb project have been present,i don't know how to create a good project by myself,the rest of my group is totally not helping me,even they never ask! even the documentation they never care ! i just make it by myself and i cant complete it! dankkk!!!

i dont know how to tell to people but i just like want to going crazy and really want to cry because i did this project by myself,but my group will have the same mark with me,and if i want..i wont do this project! i would rather stop my study if like this. im not joking,ITnB is not cheap college,fyi !

i know this is call study,but its not summarizing,its not just simply type, it must use a lotta time and ahh,i wont keep saying and complain. but sure,i cant stand it any longer!

good night. no pictures and quotes tonight. just bye.

♥,mena.

je'taime

really have a lazy sunday,i just feel i want to hibernate whole day and weekend is over. start with hell monday,which is i never like as usual.. big sighhhh**

yawn (!) so sleepy.

i did something so bad just now,i drink 3 glasses of coke,2 glasses before lunch and a glass after lunch. my stomach is so so so unwell now. my bad!! :(

all my project still pending,argghhh.. why still cant finish it,really tired doing this project! even i feel tired and nauseated,i keep forcing myself to face the project,and now feel like losing my eye power when have to blogging. =.=''

hmmm,why we as human should have hatred in our hearts? i really hope that i don't have that bad feeling. i wish i just have love and peace in my heart,and im sure you guys also want those feeling. 

after blogging,i want to sleep until 10 and wake up fetch my mom.

at last,this my today's quote

Be yourself

It's not worth it, pretending to somebody else.

♥,mena

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

i just want to say that :

 I 

 ♥ 

NOVEMBER

:)

♥,mena.

weirdoo..

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Did you mean: the one we cant have?

tomorrow will be my doomsday,sucks project will be submitted and yeah!! i hope that lecturer is going to resign! have to say,i really hate him,what to expect from us if he never teach how to do anything,just ask us to visit smartwebby.com/flash !!!! i really hope NEXT SEMESTER he won't teach our class again,too tired to make a PERFECT project!

don't really have a mood to blogging,so i just put some colorful quotes and pictures. :)

Love is complicated.
Most times, you aren't even in love.But one day,
there is gonna be that boy that knocks you off your
feet. When you find him, you won't ever feel better.

He loves you, you love him. Nothing can be wrong.

 

 

sometimes i do really want to spend my night with rain and tears. so many even abundant thing have to think and have to solve. life is not easy as you think!

end this life soon maybe will make me happy,too many thinks that outta my mind and damn! why have to be so hard!!!!

 

 good night fellas. i need rest. too tired to continue.

♥,mena

 

deep condolences.

that news really makes me shocked! i just met Christine when i was in penang a few weeks ago. but now my friends told me that she already pass away because of Wilson disease. how i wish i could turn back time and i can say hello to her,and ask her why come to check up. she's gone in 20 years old,still so and very young. yeah,i just feel why sometimes this life is so unfair? you give them a happy life,but why they have gone too soon? i just can say, R.I.P Christine Ang.

 ♥,mena.

friend or foe ?

just realize that how nice is blogging while outside is raining. you can feel the atmosphere and yeah,i never stop to say i love rain,so much! (:

hmm,i don't know why they changed. especially she,she is the one i trust,she is the one i love (as friend),she is the one i need when i sad and need to share,but why now she change? i don't know this because her new friend or what,but she is totally different now. i think i will seldom mix with them. idk this is a good decision or not at all.

fyi,i get my facebook back.. hahhaaa, and yeah,quite happy with that. :))

i used to believe in forever,


but then i realized :

forever was just too good to be true.

and today he will leaving,have a trip to KL,have a safe trip,topui! hahahha

idk,but currently like to call him as topui,hihi

time by time,day goes by.. i think our relation keep going better. and i hope can say 

I ♥ DECEMBER like I ♥ NOVEMBER. please,make it sweet. :)

the best feeling is when i wake up to find new message from you-Emily Ma
i do ♥ this quote. :)

The way i describe love would be
the b.e.s.t feeling you will ever have

 

♥

 

i do really craving for this thing.(right now)

its

♥ferrero rocher.♥

idk why,but i do really addicted to this chocolate.

just imagine,its raining,i have this chocolate,and you ♥. :) 

when i say : i need to be alone when i'm sad,

the truth is : i really need you to be shoulder to cry on.

(mena,2009)

 

 

project weeks,having 3 projects and hell im not yet start it. 

SQL Server

Vb.Net

and

Interactive Multimedia

going crazy!!!!!!!

have to end today's blog and continue do house work thing. **sigh

♥,mena.

.F.M.L.

Nothing could describe how happy am i nowadays. I really  ♥ NOVEMBER   !!!

yesterday me and gracia having a yoga class,quite nice and yeah it will makes your body more flexible. (:

and now i just finish my house work which is mopping floor,cooking,wash car,sweep floor,clean my room and etc. feel like the bones will broken soon. ):

hmm,maybe what people is quite right.. don't too kind with anyone,even your best friend,because in the end maybe he/she is wolf in sheep's clothing. thousand times i heard that proverb,but i never care with it. in the end,what i got? i just realized that i'm being fucking use! sometimes just feel upset,i want to dont care with what people said,i want to dont care with my problem just let it flow. but once when i let it flow,and i step a wrong way,i never can go back to start it again. i have a damn complicated life,how i wish all the problem will go as smooth as i wish.. hell yeah,we born just like acting on the stage,when it's over,it means we're die! Never take life serious,nobody gets out alive anyway!

Does it look like i care ?

Cause if it does then i need to work on my act

~i wish i could just die rite now
so you could be the last person i ever loved.~

my dreams and
wishes are there to
stay dreams and
wishes... nothing
more...fro if they
were true i would
have you...♥

survey again :) 

1. How old are you?

#a day older then yesterday

2. Do you think you've ever been in love?  

#im not sure what love is,but i really like someone at the time

3. How many guys have you said "i love you" to?

#2 goes to 3,soon

4. Have you ever told a guy you loved him and not meant it? 

#Nope

 
5. How old were you when you had your first kiss?  

#around 17 i think, =P

 
6. Have you ever fallen for your best guy friend? 

#nope

7. Have you ever used one guy to make another guy jealous?  

#once

8. If you really thought you were in love with your best friend's ex, would you date him even if it wasn't okay with her? 

#It dependss

9. Hoes before Bros? 

#of course

10. Have you ever asked a guy out?  

#once

11. When it comes to looks, you prefer guys with what color hair? 

#black

12. Eyes? 

#black

13. What body type do you look for in a guy? [ex: tall and skinny, short, chubby, muscular..ect] 

 #Tall,Skinny(but not skinner than me),and muscular:D

14. Hmm okay forget the looks now. Name five qualities you look for in a boyfriend.

#Nice to me around his friends,defends me when his friends make rude comments and,someone who doesnt lie when they say i love you,and can cheer me up when i sad.

 
15. Group dates or just the two of you?

#depends

16. What type of guy really catches your eye? [ex: Jock, country, emo, brainy type, ect.] 

#the one who treats me different then all the other guys,,soo,idk on this one,

17. Ever had a broken heart?

#Ohh yeah!

18. Celebrity crush?

#skip it

19. Have you ever turned down a really sweet guy that you liked, because of his looks, or because you were embarrassed to be seen with him?

#No,I turned him down because i didnt like him that wat but now i regret it

20. Do you wish you had a second chance with any guy?  

#Yes

21. What's your idea of a perfect date? 

#No idea my best date was going to the movies

22. Do you believe in love at first sight? 

#Kinda (but i think it's just a crush,not love)

23. Do you think people can stop loving eachother? 

#Yup

24. Have you ever stayed in a relationship with a guy you weren't sure you really liked?  

#Nope

25. Could you imagine dating your best guy friend? 

#Yess

26. Your best friend broke up with her boyfriend of 2 years last month. She's moved on. Is it okay to date her ex?

#i would talk to her first

27. Should the guy always pay for the date?

#haha of course

28. What's the biggest turn on? [ex: good with kids, athletic, good cook ect.]

#Caringg person,screws up and doesnt cus like crazy,laughs at his mistakes,athletic,knows how to start a conversation,not too sexually active.

 29. Do your parents usually approve of your boyfriends? idont tell them. Favorite romance movie?

#Um,,so far yeah.

31. Would you rather have a relationship like Romeo and Juliet, or Noah and Allie?

#not both of it.

32. In your oppinion, can a guy have a really close friend that's a girl, without liking her as a girlfriend?

#Hells Yes!

33. Musically Talented or Football Star?

#football star

34. Is marriage and kids something you look forward to when you're older?

#Yeahh,Not over 3 kids tho

35. Have you already thought of names for your children?

#no idea yet

36. What did you think of this survey?

#funn :)

37. If enough people were interested, would you take another survey on a different subject?

 #idk

 

 

<< crazy of  ♥ >>

need some rest,have a great day fellas.

and once again.. i'm so happy this month,don't wake me up in this dream,God! 

 ♥,mena

 

monday is over.

this monday doesn't feel so bad. having fun with my classmate,haha..

currently im addicted to transparent umbrella.. anyone know where to buy?

tomorrow plan to have yoga with gracia,feel excited!

and for Angelin,hope you will recover soon. :)

hmm,sometimes i miss my facebook so much,nowadays never update my status again.. :(

Grab your Phone.
got it ?!
courseee(:



What kind is your phone?
blackberry javelin

Who is the first person to come up under the letter M?
Mandy

Whos the last person you called?
Jovi

Who was your last missed call from?
Unknown number

Who is the 2nd person to come up under D?
Denny


Whos the third person who comes up under J?
Jenny Corina

How many messages are currently in your inbox?
never count

What do you have as your background?
transparent umbrella. ♥

Whos the 5th message in your inbox from?

Jovi's blackberry pin

 
Whos the first person who comes up under B?
BII

How many bars of signal do you currently have there?
2

Who was your last message from?
Felicia Anjani

Who is the first name in your phone book?

Ade putra. :)

Who is the last person in your phonebook?
Wilson

Name every person you have text messages from in your inbox.
Felicia Anjani,Jovi,Amelia,Gracia,Angelin.

 Whos the 5th person under A?
Akira

Who is the ninth person on your missed call list?

have been removed

What does the 6th message on your outbox say?
Ok

 

 

 

 

I wish I didn't have to say this....

But I'm in love with you.

I wish it was all just a nightmare...

But I wake up and you're still here.

I wish I wasn't so smitten....

But whenever I see you, my heart palpitates wildly.

I wish my heart wasn't so broken...

Because it really hurts.

& I wish you loved me...

Because I love you too. 

 

 

sometimes being lonely is the best way to make you forget your problem.

I Never Thought I Could
Love Someone So Much

 

-A

its 1:11 am time to sleep. have a nice dream fellas. xoxo

♥,mena.

why don't you stay?

~People always have the nerve to correct you, when you just want to do it your way.~

** thanks for Angelin and Gracia for the purple nail polish and purple ribbon. :)

ps: I LOVE THE PURPLE NAIL POLISH SO MUCH !!!!!

today angelin treat both of us and we spend so much time and having fun. thanks for the treat. :)

weekend is over and tomorrow is monday.. IHM !!!

last night i just sleep for 2 hours.and now feel so so so sleepy. *tsk

you know why i love chocolate so much?

I KNOW THE CURE TO THIS HEARTBREAK 
its called chocolate baby.

i have so many wish to pray,i want send it to heaven,but who will help me to send?

she,
sits looking at the photograph of them together.

a few small tears dropped onto it, she loves him. 

but he broke her, and shes not giving in again.

"thank you, you made me stronger." she whispers
  

to herself as she tears the page in half.

 
&he,
sits looking at the same photograph on his bed.

more angry at himself then anything else really.

he said he loved her, and he did. but you don't hurt the

people you love. so why did he? "why did you? why

did you hurt her? she was everything and more." he

whispers to himself as he closes his eyes and falls asleep.

(mena,2009)

♥ i miss the rain,and you. ♥

hmm,ok let's end today's blog with a good bye.

i love you,A

♥,mena.

drama queen

yesterday,especially last night was a pathetic night for me. someone name Devina hacked my facebook account. at first i just think ok,if he/she doesn't do anything with my account,it would have no problem with me,i can create a new one. but at last,she is going insane and said like she will kill me. but maybe it's over now. she stop spamming my facebook and up to her what she want to do with it. i don't care..

im fucking tired with this thing.

she is the craziest person that i've ever meet in this world!

ok,next topic.

i just realize that its almost december.. OMG..! 2010 will coming,seems like everyone will getting older. :(

so what i have to do is,yeah! plan something..! :)

and fyi, I  ♥  NOVEMBER so much!

        why?

the first thing is because of someonee.. :)

and the other thing is,ahh.. i pass in TOR's midtest, hihi

and the other thing is (back to the first thing) hahhaa

im craving for these thing for my birthday present..

-. abundant of ferrero rocher,for my birthday cake (i love it)

-. canon digital SLR

-. chanel J12

-. juicy couture laptop bag

-.and him. ♥

(photos not available,sorry) ;)

angelin recommend me one song, its a Twinkle Twinkle Little Star by Declan Galbraith

this is the lyric.

Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are?
Looking at your magic light
Watching over us tonight

Before my dreams take me away
I kneel beside my bed and pray
For all the children in the dark

Till tomorrow, twinkle little star....
Promise me you'll twinkle little star....
Cos everybody needs a little star.

_____________________________________________

i try to hold in the tears,
i'm sick of hiding all these fears,
i know i could have it worse
than i already do,
but all these words i say  are true.

i'm sick of putting on a fake smile.

why don't you sit down and actually listen to
what i have to say for a while.
this might be stupid,

and  this might be wrong,

but i can't
go on being so strong. 

 

 two bestfriends,
sat in silence for a while on the
hood of his old car. the boy began
to speak, "do you ever feel like
all the time your just fighting
for something you cant have?"
the girl sighed, and looked at
her bestfriend; "every single day. "

fyi,i just remember that he ♥ purple too ! ha ha ha . .

enough for today,and its weekend!

♥ 

i loovee weekend! yayyy!

♥,mena.