the rainbow's end

He makes me so happy.
But he isn't mine.
Nope.
I wish he was,
I wish he was.

time gone so fast,just realized it will become the end of January..  nothing special in this month,i wish next month is July,haha.. i have HK trip with family.. cant waitt !

dont have mood in blogging today,but feel so boring then i end up with blogging.

hmm,actually i dont know what am i doing this lately,i lie to myself and keep telling to myself that im not love him anymore,but somehow..i feel that stupid feeling,again.  sigghh (!)

i dont know what's the best for me.. i just want go to the highest place in the world and shout out loud! i have so many,even abundant problem in my mind,that i cant tell or share to everyone.. even my best friend, (after read dont ask me what it is..ok?)

 

 

 

i just want to be free like a bird fly in the sky.. 

i have to end today's blog.. and somehow feel sucks with college's project.. i have 3 projects to do..

ahhh,FML !! live never run smoothly right.. 

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♥,mena.

heartless

sometimes you have to know,how you treat someone. is it good or bad? and you have to accept how this guy treat you back. i don't know why,but nowadays people are changing.. have to admit,yeah.. you are kind and good to be friend. but sometimes,the way you speak is kinda rude! i know,i did it also somehow,i didn't blame you at all. i know i have to change myself before judging someone. but,it's a lil bit feel fed up when you are not treated well by someone that you consider as a best friend.

~nobody is perfect.~

you know how it feels,
yet you do it to me?

you know how it hurts
yet you wanna hurt me?

you'd cry
so dont take the piss?

you know its hard
so dont make it harder?

see, now i've finally realised
your some shitty friend to be honest.

if you dont like me,
dont bother faking it. 

because;
i have friends who actually CARE.

 that's all. i dont mind if someday you break up this friendship. ttyl.

have to go,hit the bedroom.. 

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♥,mena.

the world under my knee

so long didn't blogging.. aww (!) miss blogging so so muchh..

one thing i want to share is about someone,its not about A anymore. its about H.

i know i never treat him good. but,he treat so good to me,i know im totally bad.

if anything wrong,just blame me. cause i never start this relationship with a good things.

but,he always keep patient to face me. not because of last night he call me then i say this all, but honestly all is my fault. i just dont want to admit that's my fault.

i hope everything is gonna be alright. and i dont know.. should i love him or not at all?

it's really hard to decide when
YOU'RE TOO TIRED TO HOLD ON
BUT  YOU'RE  TOO   IN  LOVE  TO  LET  GO

somehow i can feel so lonely,i dont know why. when im happy suddenly i can bad mood without any reason.

i know so many weakness i have,i know people said that im bad. i know.. but,this is me..a little girl that's not perfect at all.. but one thing more important than people said is, i dont care what people said..whatever it is, it is bad or it is good..once again, I DONT FUCKING CARE.. this is my life,so why bother??

this is the last line of today's blog. hope i can blogging next time. cause my internet so slow,my sister download game that have a huge size! OMG ! 

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♥,mena.