another sleepless night

i cant blame anyone or anything,i just can blame myself cause i forget to take my medicines last night,so hell-to-the-yeah.. another sleepless night. anyway,TGIF !

i dont have plan yet where should i go tonight with ricky.. he ask me to go out cause 2 days already i just stay at home,but im kinda lazy for it,maybe i'll just stay at home. and sometimes,no need to come to my house if its not necessary. kinda lazy to accompany you when im sick. we are just a friend,a close friend. dont think that i received your present will make me love you now. i just respect you as my mom friend's son and my friend.



anyone know about butterfly nebula? i just browsed from the internet and this is what they call "butterfly nebula"

The Butterfly Nebula from Upgraded Hubble
Credit: NASA, ESA, and the Hubble SM4 ERO Team

Explanation: The bright clusters and nebulae of planet Earth's night sky are often named for flowers or insects, and NGC 6302 is no exception.
With an estimated surface temperature of about 250,000 degrees C, the central star of this particular planetary nebula is exceptionally hot though -- shining brightly in ultraviolet light but hidden from direct view by a dense torus of dust.
This dramatically detailed close-up of the dying star's nebula was recorded by the newly upgraded Hubble Space Telescope.
Cutting across a bright cavity of ionized gas, the dust torus surrounding the central star is near the center of this view, almost edge-on to the line-of-sight.
Molecular hydrogen has been detected in the hot star's dusty cosmic shroud. NGC 6302 lies about 4,000 light-years away in the arachnologically correct constellation Scorpius.




tomorrow is the first of May,seems like time gone so fast huh? and 2 months more i'll have my HK trip! :)



ohh,anyway.. last night i was tweet about this..
sometimes you have to see clearly with your eyes,which one is your true friend and which one is mothafakca. -mena.


i guess when she read it she will know.

alright,im finish..

have a great weekend fellas!

cant wait my new semester...!

*kissonthelips*

lovee, mena

Only ones who know

i just dont have mood to blog today but i really got nothing to do so,i just end up with blogging while ricky is eating his sushi ! ggrrhhh . . !
really wish i can eat sushi now,but i just can eat porridge and porridge! and somemore he capture sushi picture and send through bbm !
makes my saliva keep dropping -_____-
after he finish his sushi,we plan to watch korea drama with title oh!my lady . :)


just wish me will recover soon,fellas.


anyway,tomorrow is FRIDAY! :)

*kissonthelips*

lovee, mena

SICK !

i need a doctor, NOW (!)

i cant stand with this crazy itchy things! it makes me cant sleep for 2 days.. and it totally suffer me..
and i cant stop asking,why its only pop out at night?! and just now i go to doctor and he gives me some medicine. i hate medicines! i have been eat medicine for half year cause my sickness last time,i just feel nauseated and now i have to consume medicines for a week. its totally GROSS!

i hope it wont pop out tonight and the other night. let me have a good sleep.

tonight im gonna go out with mommy and amelia. and yeah,sun again. i dont know why my mom like to go to sun plaza,maybe there's no other big mall like sun plaza,and for shopping for sure.

currently im addicted to massive attack's song with title Paradise circus,thanks for recommended! :)

I don't believe in guilt. I believe in living on impulse.
As long as you never intentionally hurt another
person and you don't judge people in your life,
I think you should live completely free.
-Angelina Jolie


Just because it's never been
done doesn't means it impossible

i've learned that its better
[ to just live your life and have fun ; than to worry about the simple little details ]

i find out this LOL picture!

LOL !



have to get ready to fetch my sister,and go to shopping.
have a great day,fellas!

*kissonthelips*

lovee, mena

million miles away

just now,when i drive home i was thinking about my high school moment.. sometimes i really want i have time machine,so i could turn back all the sweet and good time that i've ever feel..
but the fact is even i have 10 zillion of money also i cant buy it back. let me rewind a little about my high school moment

1st grade.

~ well,i was a new student from Methodist3 cause when im graduate,M3 still doesnt have high school. so i move to Methodist2.
i still remember the first day of my high school. when i reach my new school,i didnt have any friends yet,except my old classmate from M3. and when enter the class,i sit with sherly susanti.
our teacher Pak Bulolo (i forget how to write his name). he is a kind teacher,very patient and never get mad with us. i try to mix with other friends. and try to study hard. after a month,i meet one guy beside my class name andy and its just puppy love. and i have a new best friend,Joseline.
in my class got one girl name Ria Mustika,the one i hate the most until now! so.. me and some of my friend plan something bad.. hehe.. when she out from class we take her tumbler,we spitting her water (i know its very bad!) and we put sauce into her bag. and so on..
after she cant stand it.. he report me to BP. then BP call me,and ask me why i do this thing to her. so i said.. "sir,what do you feel if someone say your daughter is a bad girl and ask your daughter's friend to not mix with your daughter?" he cant answer me, and i say.. i wont do such thing if she never say me like that. and Ria Mustika also silent. at last she got scold! lalalala~~~~ what a happy life!

after that we go to 2nd grade..

~.which is i meet my best friend, (not anymore) we are just friend now. they are mandy and gracia. our teacher is a very funny cause her attitude,she like to "ngupil" and havent married. so,i sit with Joseline. what a lucky year.. we have table that can be write with pencil ! so every test,we write our cheat sheet on our table! and it works!!! hahahaa.. nothing much on this second year i guess..


so we just move to 3rd grade,my last grade..

~.spend so much good time with my fellas.. skip the extracurricular tutorial lesson, eat snacks in certain lesson,sleep in geography and math lesson! (ahh,i miss that moment!). but i never take remedial in any subject! :)
bring handphone to class and one day our class got raid by BP then our handphone is taken by BP.. :(
then our farewell party. so happy yet so sad have to separated with classmates and teachers.
and our result of UAN,all pas except evawaty and gilbert.
and i cant believe i got a high score! hahaha... and we make a crazy thing. we buy pilox and we spray to everyone in mandy's house then take a picture. actually i keep my uniform,but my mom throw it away.

and now! i get into college and this may is my 6th semester! YEAHHH! so fast...

last night,i was attend ricky's mom birthday party. the party was ok.. i didnt enjoy it much cause most of the guests is ai2 and acek2 hahaa.. so ricky know i didnt enjoy his mom party,so he bring me to de'heritage to have ice cream and cakes. after that he bring me to take some photo of grand aston,and something that i wont forget. simple but sweet. when on our way to my home,i fall asleep cause he drive only 40km/h. i dont feel cold or what,but he cover me with his coat.. :)

i didnt upload so much in here cause the picture size is quite big..


today,he will be so busy cause he just have free time after 9pm. and friday,saturday and sunday he didnt go to his factory to check his employees. he work with his father,his father producing bird nest.


well,have to end today's blog.
have a great monday!!!

*kissonthelips*

lovee, mena

the end of the night.

"life is rough so you gotta be tough"

last night was the best night in this week! haha.. go to ai moka to have a dinner and accompany him play golf. :) tonight we'll go to aston to celebrate his mom birthday..

well anyway.. happy birthday ricky's mom! wish you all the best! :)

and last night he gave me purple ice watch!! so happyyy.. he say "i give you this present not to show my feeling but i just happy to have a friend like you,so you deserve it" aww(!)

sili collection
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

and this coming july-august we'll go to HK-macau-China-KL with ricky's family! yayyy! :)

i dont know,but he's totally fun! and i cant stop hahaha-ing when with him.
which i cant feel it when im with anyone else. :)


anyway,he can play piano and he really good in cooking.. haha..





i find out these awesome picture

how i wish i have pool like this in my house! ♥


every girl has that one boy in her life, who could call her at three in the morning and say, "let's hang out. i'm coming to get you".
and she would put aside everything she was doing, her excitement, her anger or her momentary hate for him.
and she would proceed to give him only four words, "give me ten minutes"



have to end today's blog cause i have to take a nap then prepare for the party.
have a great day,fellas!

mena left


♥,mena

Nothing on you.

i broke up with the one guy..
because i though i needed to be alone,
because i need to focus on school,
because i was afraid he would hurt me again,
because none of my friends like him,
because my mom doesn't trust him,
and because im the stupidest, idiotic teenage girl in the world!

what's up my happysad friend?

this holiday is the uncool holiday for me,cause i just stay at home and sleep from 1pm-6pm.
wake up to have my dinner,then sleep again until 9pm wake up to fetch my mom,
after home i watch some movie and sleep around 3am.
and its totally bored!



i wish 3rd may is coming soon! cause its the day i will meet my classmate,yayyyy! =)



And maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday <3



fyi,i just sign out from facebook forever
cause some privacy thing,but i still have twitter. i ♥ twitter! haha..


"I wish I could get away from it all;
I wish there was a place with
no anger, no limits, and have
peace." ♥

mena signing out

♥,mena

little silly things..

Loosing a friend is easier than knowing she was never your friend.

last night i had a damn great bbQ with my new friends.. never thought my mom friend's child is so so kind! hahhaa.. we finish it around 4am,and we continue watch sorority row at their theater room, and yeah omg! the movie was so so so terrific..

anyway,really had a great night! :)


im craving for this,now!

how i wish everything have delivery service,so i dont have to drive to buy it.. hahaha..


currently im addicted to justin bieber's song.
its common denominator and down to earth.
give it a try,fellas!

I spent too long trying to make you think of me as more than just

worthless

until i realized it never mattered, and for all this pain you aren't

worth it.

like usual,i'll post miranda kerr's picture.
cant stop to say she is gorgeous!

have to end today's blog.. i got nothing to share,

just have a great day dude! :)

gbu..

mena left



♥,mena

heaven . .

who doesn't like these thing?

saliva drop after see those picture, u________u




1 thing i don't leave the house without !



my lovely blackberry. :)

THINGS DON'T GO WRONG
&& break your heart so you can become bitter && give up;
they happen to break you down && build you up so you
can be all that you were
INTENDED TO BE

have to end today's blog fellas..

have to take a long nap cause i cant sleep well last night.

happy holiday. :)

mena left


XoXo,mena

someday somewhere someone

I never thought that it be easy
Cause we both so distance now
And the walls are closing in on us
And we're wondering how
No one has a solid answer
But just walking in the dark
And you can see the look on my face
It just tells me apart

-Down To Earth-





im sorry cause im getting cold to you.. i dont know why,i just too afraid you cant give me the real happiness. and,i tell you baby.. happiness is not just laughing,kissing,or having sex.. please,keep in your mind what you have to do to make me happy. or else.. i will leave you for sure. last night was a tense day for me,cause my mom ask about him.. she doesnt like him cause several reason,but all her words is 100% true,and maybe its makes me feel so cold with him.

i'm sorry . .






tonight we gonna hit jimbaran for dinner,so damn long didnt go there.. i will go with my family,my mom's friends with their son and daughter. today,i have new friend.. he is ricky, he is so funny. i just knew him 5 hours ago,but he can make me keep laughing with his jokes.. will meet him tonight at jimbaran. and i guess i cant stop laughing there. seeyouu guyss! :)


ahh,anyway my mom is going to buy new car..
need your opinion guyss..



or






have to get ready to attend my dinner tonight,have a great day fellas..

happy holiday! :)

mena signing out


XoXo,mena

happiness.

enough for sharing picture,time to say good night.

HAPPY HOLIDAY,fellas! ♥

mena signing out


♥,mena

♥

nothing to share.. but i will always remember our moment. and thank you for being a part of my life. wish someday will come..

mena signing out

♥,mena

i wish i was near an ocean

lovely mondayy!

spend the day with shopping and i bought a lotta things!
anyway,i would like share about someone or 2 people that quite annoying.
i really no idea who are they.. their name is Pramotto and Edy Yanto,
i really hate it when someone try to "SKSD" with me..
i was like,HELLOOOO!? who the hell are youu!??
the guy name Edy Yanto (idk who is he/she)



he retweet my twitter ;

ok,lemme ask you... what is your problem dude!? and please dont play with fire bebehh!
#note that!#

and someone again name Pramotto (i know you will read my blog,actually i dont know who you are) please mind my words that i've told you on bbm, i guess you are too grow up to understand.



day after day,time pass away.. i still feel not really sure about you..
dont make it too long beibeh,cause its hard to make my feeling back to the way it was.
and i guess its not possible to make me sure when my feeling's fade
~its hard to come back.~


good night fellas!
happy holidayyy!! i love holiday..

mena signing out

xoxo,mena.

stop and stare

LAZY SUNDAY ! =)

again,spend the weekend at home.. i guess 3 weeks already i never spend my weekend with fellas.
sometimes i just too lazy to get my ass off from bed. hehe you know me..

i wake up around 12pm today,then lazy to take a bath,directly online and create a new look at looklet.com and this is the result. =)



im using my sister account,cause i forget what is my account for looklet,hehe


i guess today i will sleep again after i have my lunch.. lazy level 99 !
anyway,i really have one wish on this april !
i want have my own room!! like this..



but,sure mom wont allow it! thats a great room,and i will never ever get out from there! =(
i want it badlyyy.. !
please,let me get what i wanttttttt (!)






i am completely obsessed with sunsets right now :)
♥
"how happy is the empty vessel's lot,
the world forgetting by the world forgot.
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind,
each prayer accepted and each wish resigned"





and something that i wanna show to you guys!

ahhh,i ♥ miranda kerr,so muchhh!
sp pretty,so sexy..!
if i were a boy,i will print out her picture and stick it around my bathroom!
ohMY !!!!!!!


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
anyway,i found this quote..
and should i start it again?
i dont have any idea..

Don't watch her leave.
Don't let her let go.
Grab her.
Tell her she's yours.
You love her.
And she's your A ++ #1 best friend.
No one will EVER replace her.
________________________



have to end today's blog.
happy HOLIDAY everyone!

mena signing out


♥,mena

dont call my name

clash of the titans is not a very good movie i think.. cant makes my eyes stop winking,i still can feel sleepy. haha.. thanks for the time anyway,and again..thanks for the hand. how i wish everything works like what i want,then i wont be uncertain about this feeling somehow.


and again,i spend my saturday night at home watch some dvd and sometimes it can kills the boredom.


i was thinking,how long that i never hang out with angelin and gracia.. i guess the last i hang out with angelin is when we eat chocolate fondue at Hangen dazs. and the last i meet gracia is when she come to my birthday. sometimes i miss those time that i can laugh and talk whatever we want to.. but i just can miss those time and cant make it happen anymore. time goes by and people is changing. is not call as best friend anyway. sorry for my blind side.

Our fingerprints dont fade
From the lives we touch.
♥

Robert Pattinson - Remember Me

and again,happy holiday fellas.

you right,i should move on.
but,question please.. where do i go?

mena signing out

♥,mena