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be real, because a mask only fools people on the outside.
pretending to be someone your not takes a toll on the real you,
and the real you is more important than anyone else.



last night i was argued with angelin about her willing to make a tattoo. even its white tattoo,i still not agree with her willing. then i said to her,up to you..do whatever you want,and if you make it,just forget about our friendship. i guess thats the best way. because i really hate someone have a tattoo,i dont know why.. if you make temporarily tattoo at whole your body i dont mind it,but if you make permanent one,i think rghh,i dont know how to explain,i just dont like it. please consider it again,i just want you the best.


i was wondering about my birthday party that i just have 2 weeks left. have to think,where should i celebrate it. maybe @ bakerzin. but,still dont know yet. am creating about invitation card that i have to tag my friend on it..
i dont know which one is the best.

have to end today's blog
have a great day!

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its just a little crush..

this is the story
of a girl who cried
in a river and
Drowned the world

Chinese New Year is over,and i just realize today is Friday TGIF. :)
Anyway,i have a little question.. why nowadays boys act like shit? i just don't get it,why?
they come and go as their will,without thinking about girl's feeling.
no wonder if i said,i have a thought to not get married someday,and i have abundant reason for it.
until now i never found a "real" good guy. seems like all the guys that ever close to me is like an animal. sorry to say,but its TRUE!
They have a really good mask to cover their face,and what a stupid girl have to believe that is him,which is he wearing his mask. let say IF,i meet a guy that really really a good guy,i wont swear to myself that i wont get married. its kinda rare to find a good guy nowadays. fiuuhh,i just dont get it,FGS!


ok,lets move to another topic,which is..
this boring afternoon i dont have anything to do,so i search someone's name on facebook,and. OhmyEFF-ingGOD ! his pictures is so EUYYYY!!! im not humiliating him,but its really a fucking awful pictures! Thanks God,you not make me fall for him.. aishhhhh!

I will never again feel the pain you bought to me because I will never again open my heart to some one like you..


anyway,i have a little wish for my birthday on 5th March..
crocs women's santa cruz

alright,have to end today's blog.

have a great weekend beibehhhh! :)

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Where No One Knows

tomorrow is a Chinese New Year and Valentine's day. which i'm totally lazy to celebrate that two. i wish i could sleep and just stay at home watch some movies. maybe people will think,its boring but i like those boring thing..

today's blog i want share i little bit about someone that yeahh,i just know him for 3 days. So far he's good to me,but i wont judge too early about him. he said that he want to know me more. then i said,just let it flow.. last night he call me,and we talk a lotta thing.. (13 Feb)

luckily im not yet publish this blog.
Actually he is Jovi's friend. and ok,i think because he is Jovi's friend i will reply his msg in bbm. we talk so much thing yeah,still normal stuffs.. but second day he can said that he want me,he want to kiss me,he want to hug me when we meet up. i was like, wow! this guy damn aggressive.. but,i just reply with haha and haha and haha.. i got ask freddy (amelia's bf-red) about him. he said,he is a model,and many girls adore him. i was think,WHAT!? a model ?? and still got few things that makes me dont like him. at last,i told him..dont find me anymore,i dont like you. the end. (16 Feb)

What is heartbreak?

Is it lying on the bathroom floor trying your damnest to breathe
while simultaneously wondering why it went wrong,
how you're gonna get up and pretend like everything is alright,
and what the hell are you going to do about that hole in your chest?
Yeah, I think that's it.

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you don't care about us

i dont know whether its correct or not. i try to kind to everyone but seems like they think i give them a chance to close to me,which is i just consider them as a friend. maybe i supposed to say until where is their boundary. so they cant think that i give them ticket to cross over the boundary. i dont want to fall again,for the second,or third or forth times.

but, somehow i wish he wants my gold tickets to cross over the limit. yeah,he just dont know i have it. and maybe he doesn't want it.

today is the hottest day in this week i think. i cant stand,FGS ! after finish discussing about our shit project,i back home for a while then go to cambridge to have creambath. and now my head feel so freshh.. :)

i have to sleep for an hour. wait my next blog fellas.

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during the night.

so far i dont really understand about security,privacy,and ethics 's subject. how to encrypt and decrypt.. have to say i hate coding(s) so much! better web-design than programmer.
ohh gross!! but yeah,its call college and never miss what is call STUDY,LEARNING,and if we get focus on learning something,we can be success person! i know,i know it badly.. but somehow,its difficult to force ourself to keep learning,assshhhh!! i don't understand why got certain people do love reading textbook from college,its totally bored!
yeah,i have to force myself to understand all the subject.. sick of projects,for God sake!

you want the truth ?



i love you.


[highlight it]




anyway,i should oh no i must ! thank God cause i have two lovely friend,they always with me whenever i need them. (is it true?) or i just too happy that i have 2 great damn fellas?

thank you for A and G, i ♥ you guys.. :)

friendship,
its just like peeing on your self
everybody can see but
only you can feel the warm feeling





good night world! have a great day.. and TGIF. :)

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a secret behind the flower

fiuhh !! Finally,i can finish my director's quiz. and this is the result.. ♥

i dont have any idea what about to post tonight,so i just put some quotes :)
anw,im so love with 21guns song. Green day feat American idiot Musical cast. Awesome!!!

check this out!

don't forget;
it only takes one smile :)
... to hide a million tears.

have to say good night. have a great day on this February.

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the rainbow's end

He makes me so happy.
But he isn't mine.
Nope.
I wish he was,
I wish he was.

time gone so fast,just realized it will become the end of January..  nothing special in this month,i wish next month is July,haha.. i have HK trip with family.. cant waitt !

dont have mood in blogging today,but feel so boring then i end up with blogging.

hmm,actually i dont know what am i doing this lately,i lie to myself and keep telling to myself that im not love him anymore,but somehow..i feel that stupid feeling,again.  sigghh (!)

i dont know what's the best for me.. i just want go to the highest place in the world and shout out loud! i have so many,even abundant problem in my mind,that i cant tell or share to everyone.. even my best friend, (after read dont ask me what it is..ok?)

 

 

 

i just want to be free like a bird fly in the sky.. 

i have to end today's blog.. and somehow feel sucks with college's project.. i have 3 projects to do..

ahhh,FML !! live never run smoothly right.. 

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heartless

sometimes you have to know,how you treat someone. is it good or bad? and you have to accept how this guy treat you back. i don't know why,but nowadays people are changing.. have to admit,yeah.. you are kind and good to be friend. but sometimes,the way you speak is kinda rude! i know,i did it also somehow,i didn't blame you at all. i know i have to change myself before judging someone. but,it's a lil bit feel fed up when you are not treated well by someone that you consider as a best friend.

~nobody is perfect.~

you know how it feels,
yet you do it to me?

you know how it hurts
yet you wanna hurt me?

you'd cry
so dont take the piss?

you know its hard
so dont make it harder?

see, now i've finally realised
your some shitty friend to be honest.

if you dont like me,
dont bother faking it. 

because;
i have friends who actually CARE.

 that's all. i dont mind if someday you break up this friendship. ttyl.

have to go,hit the bedroom.. 

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the world under my knee

so long didn't blogging.. aww (!) miss blogging so so muchh..

one thing i want to share is about someone,its not about A anymore. its about H.

i know i never treat him good. but,he treat so good to me,i know im totally bad.

if anything wrong,just blame me. cause i never start this relationship with a good things.

but,he always keep patient to face me. not because of last night he call me then i say this all, but honestly all is my fault. i just dont want to admit that's my fault.

i hope everything is gonna be alright. and i dont know.. should i love him or not at all?

it's really hard to decide when
YOU'RE TOO TIRED TO HOLD ON
BUT  YOU'RE  TOO   IN  LOVE  TO  LET  GO

somehow i can feel so lonely,i dont know why. when im happy suddenly i can bad mood without any reason.

i know so many weakness i have,i know people said that im bad. i know.. but,this is me..a little girl that's not perfect at all.. but one thing more important than people said is, i dont care what people said..whatever it is, it is bad or it is good..once again, I DONT FUCKING CARE.. this is my life,so why bother??

this is the last line of today's blog. hope i can blogging next time. cause my internet so slow,my sister download game that have a huge size! OMG ! 

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broken-hearted girl

 Don't tell me the
SKY is the limit,
when there's
FOOTPRINTS
on the MOON.

maybe it was a hard decision to say "i'm just not that into you" but,i just dont have that feeling to you, even i admit it,you are super kind with me. i'm sorry. :(

being single is the best choice maybe..

nothing to share,feel so empty.. 

how many times can i
 break
     till i shatter
                       

 give me a break
let me make my own
pattern

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