.F.M.L.

Nothing could describe how happy am i nowadays. I really  ♥ NOVEMBER   !!!

yesterday me and gracia having a yoga class,quite nice and yeah it will makes your body more flexible. (:

and now i just finish my house work which is mopping floor,cooking,wash car,sweep floor,clean my room and etc. feel like the bones will broken soon. ):

hmm,maybe what people is quite right.. don't too kind with anyone,even your best friend,because in the end maybe he/she is wolf in sheep's clothing. thousand times i heard that proverb,but i never care with it. in the end,what i got? i just realized that i'm being fucking use! sometimes just feel upset,i want to dont care with what people said,i want to dont care with my problem just let it flow. but once when i let it flow,and i step a wrong way,i never can go back to start it again. i have a damn complicated life,how i wish all the problem will go as smooth as i wish.. hell yeah,we born just like acting on the stage,when it's over,it means we're die! Never take life serious,nobody gets out alive anyway!

Does it look like i care ?

Cause if it does then i need to work on my act

~i wish i could just die rite now
so you could be the last person i ever loved.~

my dreams and
wishes are there to
stay dreams and
wishes... nothing
more...fro if they
were true i would
have you...♥

survey again :) 

1. How old are you?

#a day older then yesterday

2. Do you think you've ever been in love?  

#im not sure what love is,but i really like someone at the time

3. How many guys have you said "i love you" to?

#2 goes to 3,soon

4. Have you ever told a guy you loved him and not meant it? 

#Nope

 
5. How old were you when you had your first kiss?  

#around 17 i think, =P

 
6. Have you ever fallen for your best guy friend? 

#nope

7. Have you ever used one guy to make another guy jealous?  

#once

8. If you really thought you were in love with your best friend's ex, would you date him even if it wasn't okay with her? 

#It dependss

9. Hoes before Bros? 

#of course

10. Have you ever asked a guy out?  

#once

11. When it comes to looks, you prefer guys with what color hair? 

#black

12. Eyes? 

#black

13. What body type do you look for in a guy? [ex: tall and skinny, short, chubby, muscular..ect] 

 #Tall,Skinny(but not skinner than me),and muscular:D

14. Hmm okay forget the looks now. Name five qualities you look for in a boyfriend.

#Nice to me around his friends,defends me when his friends make rude comments and,someone who doesnt lie when they say i love you,and can cheer me up when i sad.

 
15. Group dates or just the two of you?

#depends

16. What type of guy really catches your eye? [ex: Jock, country, emo, brainy type, ect.] 

#the one who treats me different then all the other guys,,soo,idk on this one,

17. Ever had a broken heart?

#Ohh yeah!

18. Celebrity crush?

#skip it

19. Have you ever turned down a really sweet guy that you liked, because of his looks, or because you were embarrassed to be seen with him?

#No,I turned him down because i didnt like him that wat but now i regret it

20. Do you wish you had a second chance with any guy?  

#Yes

21. What's your idea of a perfect date? 

#No idea my best date was going to the movies

22. Do you believe in love at first sight? 

#Kinda (but i think it's just a crush,not love)

23. Do you think people can stop loving eachother? 

#Yup

24. Have you ever stayed in a relationship with a guy you weren't sure you really liked?  

#Nope

25. Could you imagine dating your best guy friend? 

#Yess

26. Your best friend broke up with her boyfriend of 2 years last month. She's moved on. Is it okay to date her ex?

#i would talk to her first

27. Should the guy always pay for the date?

#haha of course

28. What's the biggest turn on? [ex: good with kids, athletic, good cook ect.]

#Caringg person,screws up and doesnt cus like crazy,laughs at his mistakes,athletic,knows how to start a conversation,not too sexually active.

 29. Do your parents usually approve of your boyfriends? idont tell them. Favorite romance movie?

#Um,,so far yeah.

31. Would you rather have a relationship like Romeo and Juliet, or Noah and Allie?

#not both of it.

32. In your oppinion, can a guy have a really close friend that's a girl, without liking her as a girlfriend?

#Hells Yes!

33. Musically Talented or Football Star?

#football star

34. Is marriage and kids something you look forward to when you're older?

#Yeahh,Not over 3 kids tho

35. Have you already thought of names for your children?

#no idea yet

36. What did you think of this survey?

#funn :)

37. If enough people were interested, would you take another survey on a different subject?

 #idk

 

 

<< crazy of  ♥ >>

need some rest,have a great day fellas.

and once again.. i'm so happy this month,don't wake me up in this dream,God! 

 ♥,mena

 

monday is over.

this monday doesn't feel so bad. having fun with my classmate,haha..

currently im addicted to transparent umbrella.. anyone know where to buy?

tomorrow plan to have yoga with gracia,feel excited!

and for Angelin,hope you will recover soon. :)

hmm,sometimes i miss my facebook so much,nowadays never update my status again.. :(

Grab your Phone.
got it ?!
courseee(:



What kind is your phone?
blackberry javelin

Who is the first person to come up under the letter M?
Mandy

Whos the last person you called?
Jovi

Who was your last missed call from?
Unknown number

Who is the 2nd person to come up under D?
Denny


Whos the third person who comes up under J?
Jenny Corina

How many messages are currently in your inbox?
never count

What do you have as your background?
transparent umbrella. ♥

Whos the 5th message in your inbox from?

Jovi's blackberry pin

 
Whos the first person who comes up under B?
BII

How many bars of signal do you currently have there?
2

Who was your last message from?
Felicia Anjani

Who is the first name in your phone book?

Ade putra. :)

Who is the last person in your phonebook?
Wilson

Name every person you have text messages from in your inbox.
Felicia Anjani,Jovi,Amelia,Gracia,Angelin.

 Whos the 5th person under A?
Akira

Who is the ninth person on your missed call list?

have been removed

What does the 6th message on your outbox say?
Ok

 

 

 

 

I wish I didn't have to say this....

But I'm in love with you.

I wish it was all just a nightmare...

But I wake up and you're still here.

I wish I wasn't so smitten....

But whenever I see you, my heart palpitates wildly.

I wish my heart wasn't so broken...

Because it really hurts.

& I wish you loved me...

Because I love you too. 

 

 

sometimes being lonely is the best way to make you forget your problem.

I Never Thought I Could
Love Someone So Much

 

-A

its 1:11 am time to sleep. have a nice dream fellas. xoxo

♥,mena.

why don't you stay?

~People always have the nerve to correct you, when you just want to do it your way.~

** thanks for Angelin and Gracia for the purple nail polish and purple ribbon. :)

ps: I LOVE THE PURPLE NAIL POLISH SO MUCH !!!!!

today angelin treat both of us and we spend so much time and having fun. thanks for the treat. :)

weekend is over and tomorrow is monday.. IHM !!!

last night i just sleep for 2 hours.and now feel so so so sleepy. *tsk

you know why i love chocolate so much?

I KNOW THE CURE TO THIS HEARTBREAK 
its called chocolate baby.

i have so many wish to pray,i want send it to heaven,but who will help me to send?

she,
sits looking at the photograph of them together.

a few small tears dropped onto it, she loves him. 

but he broke her, and shes not giving in again.

"thank you, you made me stronger." she whispers
  

to herself as she tears the page in half.

 
&he,
sits looking at the same photograph on his bed.

more angry at himself then anything else really.

he said he loved her, and he did. but you don't hurt the

people you love. so why did he? "why did you? why

did you hurt her? she was everything and more." he

whispers to himself as he closes his eyes and falls asleep.

(mena,2009)

♥ i miss the rain,and you. ♥

hmm,ok let's end today's blog with a good bye.

i love you,A

♥,mena.

drama queen

yesterday,especially last night was a pathetic night for me. someone name Devina hacked my facebook account. at first i just think ok,if he/she doesn't do anything with my account,it would have no problem with me,i can create a new one. but at last,she is going insane and said like she will kill me. but maybe it's over now. she stop spamming my facebook and up to her what she want to do with it. i don't care..

im fucking tired with this thing.

she is the craziest person that i've ever meet in this world!

ok,next topic.

i just realize that its almost december.. OMG..! 2010 will coming,seems like everyone will getting older. :(

so what i have to do is,yeah! plan something..! :)

and fyi, I  ♥  NOVEMBER so much!

        why?

the first thing is because of someonee.. :)

and the other thing is,ahh.. i pass in TOR's midtest, hihi

and the other thing is (back to the first thing) hahhaa

im craving for these thing for my birthday present..

-. abundant of ferrero rocher,for my birthday cake (i love it)

-. canon digital SLR

-. chanel J12

-. juicy couture laptop bag

-.and him. ♥

(photos not available,sorry) ;)

angelin recommend me one song, its a Twinkle Twinkle Little Star by Declan Galbraith

this is the lyric.

Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are?
Looking at your magic light
Watching over us tonight

Before my dreams take me away
I kneel beside my bed and pray
For all the children in the dark

Till tomorrow, twinkle little star....
Promise me you'll twinkle little star....
Cos everybody needs a little star.

_____________________________________________

i try to hold in the tears,
i'm sick of hiding all these fears,
i know i could have it worse
than i already do,
but all these words i say  are true.

i'm sick of putting on a fake smile.

why don't you sit down and actually listen to
what i have to say for a while.
this might be stupid,

and  this might be wrong,

but i can't
go on being so strong. 

 

 two bestfriends,
sat in silence for a while on the
hood of his old car. the boy began
to speak, "do you ever feel like
all the time your just fighting
for something you cant have?"
the girl sighed, and looked at
her bestfriend; "every single day. "

fyi,i just remember that he ♥ purple too ! ha ha ha . .

enough for today,and its weekend!

♥ 

i loovee weekend! yayyy!

♥,mena.

where are you my Mr. Pumpkin ?

Happy Halloween 

love is just  a word
nothing's gonna make that person you need love you
 except,
for  that bitch who always gets in the way.

have a great weekend fellas,and tonight gracia and angelin come back ! yayyy! so many things to hear from them. miss them so muchh!!! :)

♥

♥

♥

this few days i'm watching my fair lady (korean movie)

lovely movie and i spend a pack of tissue to watch this movie,huhu..

everyone is preparing their halloween party,so where should i go?

i'm just looking for my Mr.Pumpkin.

mid test is over,and feel so free! but project(S) is hunting me. =='

enough for today,in process making interactive multimedia project. terrified!!!!!!

♥,mena.

 

please love me or i'll be gone

when wake up my sister suggest me a very good song,its all out of love by soluna. an old song but i love it so! and today is lovely sunday.. :)

fyi,mid test is coming,still no preparation to study. *sighh

ahh,my besties will leaving tomorrow. they have their SOT from their college and they have it in Singapore. dank,so nice!!  and he will leaving too. i just wish you guys have a nice and a safe trip. (no conference in bbm with them for a week,sob sob**)

i was try to not write about him as long as i could stand. & maybe that is the easiest way.. i know i'mjustasillygirl! (aww!)

anw,i have a new photo..

i don't wanna f a l l

because i  d o n ' t  know
if you're there to
      ---- >  c-a-t-c-h me.

Remember the secrets we shared?

Remember how much I knew you?
Remember when we promised nothing
would come between us, & we would
be best friends forever?

Remember when you came to me in any situation?
Remember how much I loved you?

 
do you remember?

___________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

 

NO MATTER HOW YOU FEEL
you should a l w a y s remember who's important in your life because there is always that

:c e r t a i n::s o m e o n e: who will be there for you {[n o m a t t e r w h a t.]} It could be a best friend, a special someone, p a r e n t s, relatives, even p e t s , but those people will a l w a y s be there for you. Even when you are feeling;;
ALL ALONE. 

 

 all i want to do is just forget you! (if i could,i will..)

enough for today,and i can't stop listening all out of love by soluna. :)

♥,mena.

girls day out. :)

too lazy to blog today,but i got nothing to do,so i decide to write a line and share some picture (also quotes) i ♥ quotes :)

today i spend my weekend with my best friend. i know you guys want your name in here,tehehe.. they are angelin and gracia. had a lunch at cupncino, angelin borrow and teach me how to use digital SLR and eat sate in car,yeah a lot of things we did just now.

and now,i'm home! good to be home!! :)

today raining again,and i never can stop to say that i love raining. i'm addicted to rain.

anyway,i don't know how to mad but,gracia you make my car's smell so weird!!!  :p

                                                  

Maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone.
Keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this;
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now, I had sworn to myself
that I'm content with loneliness.
Because none of it was ever worth the risk...
Well, you are the only exception.
You are the only exception. 

 

I am an open book..
printed with invisible ink.
you either flip the pages assuming they are blank.
or try and read between the lines.
and discover my secrets...
Choice is yours.

3 meetings to go,not yet start my interactive multimedia's project. someday i really want to complain about itnb lecturer,but let me write in here.

Monday- William Wijaya (SQL server)

-. our class never understood what the taught. like yesterday my friend ask something,then he check his computer,but never answer what my friend ask,just like pretending. he so wish that our class noisy and nobody ask him question because he afraid he cannot answer it.

Tuesday - Robin Loh (Technical Operation Research)

-. actually i don't have any comment to him,but sometimes he teach too fast and force us to understand,even sometimes we not yet and still try to understand,he next the topic.

Wednesday - Thamrin Kwan (Visual basic)

-. i think he is a good lecturer,he know hoe to teach,start from where,not so fast in teaching and he know how to teach step by step.

Thursday - Rejeki Ongsa (Interactive multimedia)

-. this will be a long long long complain.. i don't whats the point of he teach about,he just teach about theory,and theory. but the project,he never teach the step,and meeting 8 he want we make the story board. he just give us an example. what for? all we want is he open adobe flash,what the first step we have to do,not just say your project must be interactive,bla2.. don't expect too much if you never teach us how to make. every semester i should going crazy about his project!

Friday - Sanif (Computer Networking)

-. not bad teacher,he likes to joke and make the class more relax. but,this is my bad,i don't really understand about this subject. but i'll try my best. :)

                                                                                                                                   

I'd like to make myself believe;
///// that ( planet earth ) turns slowly.\\\\\
It's [hard]to say that I'd rather (stay awake )
when I'm (asleep) - - - > Because my dream 

... are bursting at the seems (♥)

ok,finish complaining and i should end with bye. but anyway,try beyonce's song - honesty. nice song! :)

♥,mena.

ps: I hate it when people create rumors just because they are jealous.

gitchi gitchi goo~~

Elthon John said : " sorry seems to be the hardest word."

Mena said : " goodbye seems to be the hardest word."

and now i'm off, running in the pouring rain,
and i scream to my neighbors and the whole
world and everyone who bothers to listen how
much i love you at the top of my lungs, hoping

 [o-n-e day, you'll hear me t o o.]

Sorry Brain
[for overloading you with thoughts about him]

Sorry Eyes
[for staring at him everytime he comes into sight]


Sorry Nose
[for smelling the sweetness of his colonge everytime he walks by]

Sorry Tummy
[for getting butterflies when i see him]

Sorry Knees
[for getting weak whenever i talk to him]

Sorry Feet
[for running after him when he's already gone . . .]

i don't mind if you ignore me,but gimme a second to say this (someday)

i know this relationship can't work out,i'm just hoping for nothing.

my friends said that you are not good enough for me. and i was thinking,yeah they got right!

everytime i want to say goodbye,you come and cheer up my day.

or maybe i'm not suppose to say goodbye to you?

idk.

just that,and take a good care. :) 

 Regards,

mena.

 

this for you. ♥ 

♥,mena.