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be real, because a mask only fools people on the outside.
pretending to be someone your not takes a toll on the real you,
and the real you is more important than anyone else.



last night i was argued with angelin about her willing to make a tattoo. even its white tattoo,i still not agree with her willing. then i said to her,up to you..do whatever you want,and if you make it,just forget about our friendship. i guess thats the best way. because i really hate someone have a tattoo,i dont know why.. if you make temporarily tattoo at whole your body i dont mind it,but if you make permanent one,i think rghh,i dont know how to explain,i just dont like it. please consider it again,i just want you the best.


i was wondering about my birthday party that i just have 2 weeks left. have to think,where should i celebrate it. maybe @ bakerzin. but,still dont know yet. am creating about invitation card that i have to tag my friend on it..
i dont know which one is the best.

have to end today's blog
have a great day!

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its just a little crush..

this is the story
of a girl who cried
in a river and
Drowned the world

Chinese New Year is over,and i just realize today is Friday TGIF. :)
Anyway,i have a little question.. why nowadays boys act like shit? i just don't get it,why?
they come and go as their will,without thinking about girl's feeling.
no wonder if i said,i have a thought to not get married someday,and i have abundant reason for it.
until now i never found a "real" good guy. seems like all the guys that ever close to me is like an animal. sorry to say,but its TRUE!
They have a really good mask to cover their face,and what a stupid girl have to believe that is him,which is he wearing his mask. let say IF,i meet a guy that really really a good guy,i wont swear to myself that i wont get married. its kinda rare to find a good guy nowadays. fiuuhh,i just dont get it,FGS!


ok,lets move to another topic,which is..
this boring afternoon i dont have anything to do,so i search someone's name on facebook,and. OhmyEFF-ingGOD ! his pictures is so EUYYYY!!! im not humiliating him,but its really a fucking awful pictures! Thanks God,you not make me fall for him.. aishhhhh!

I will never again feel the pain you bought to me because I will never again open my heart to some one like you..


anyway,i have a little wish for my birthday on 5th March..
crocs women's santa cruz

alright,have to end today's blog.

have a great weekend beibehhhh! :)

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Where No One Knows

tomorrow is a Chinese New Year and Valentine's day. which i'm totally lazy to celebrate that two. i wish i could sleep and just stay at home watch some movies. maybe people will think,its boring but i like those boring thing..

today's blog i want share i little bit about someone that yeahh,i just know him for 3 days. So far he's good to me,but i wont judge too early about him. he said that he want to know me more. then i said,just let it flow.. last night he call me,and we talk a lotta thing.. (13 Feb)

luckily im not yet publish this blog.
Actually he is Jovi's friend. and ok,i think because he is Jovi's friend i will reply his msg in bbm. we talk so much thing yeah,still normal stuffs.. but second day he can said that he want me,he want to kiss me,he want to hug me when we meet up. i was like, wow! this guy damn aggressive.. but,i just reply with haha and haha and haha.. i got ask freddy (amelia's bf-red) about him. he said,he is a model,and many girls adore him. i was think,WHAT!? a model ?? and still got few things that makes me dont like him. at last,i told him..dont find me anymore,i dont like you. the end. (16 Feb)

What is heartbreak?

Is it lying on the bathroom floor trying your damnest to breathe
while simultaneously wondering why it went wrong,
how you're gonna get up and pretend like everything is alright,
and what the hell are you going to do about that hole in your chest?
Yeah, I think that's it.

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you don't care about us

i dont know whether its correct or not. i try to kind to everyone but seems like they think i give them a chance to close to me,which is i just consider them as a friend. maybe i supposed to say until where is their boundary. so they cant think that i give them ticket to cross over the boundary. i dont want to fall again,for the second,or third or forth times.

but, somehow i wish he wants my gold tickets to cross over the limit. yeah,he just dont know i have it. and maybe he doesn't want it.

today is the hottest day in this week i think. i cant stand,FGS ! after finish discussing about our shit project,i back home for a while then go to cambridge to have creambath. and now my head feel so freshh.. :)

i have to sleep for an hour. wait my next blog fellas.

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during the night.

so far i dont really understand about security,privacy,and ethics 's subject. how to encrypt and decrypt.. have to say i hate coding(s) so much! better web-design than programmer.
ohh gross!! but yeah,its call college and never miss what is call STUDY,LEARNING,and if we get focus on learning something,we can be success person! i know,i know it badly.. but somehow,its difficult to force ourself to keep learning,assshhhh!! i don't understand why got certain people do love reading textbook from college,its totally bored!
yeah,i have to force myself to understand all the subject.. sick of projects,for God sake!

you want the truth ?



i love you.


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anyway,i should oh no i must ! thank God cause i have two lovely friend,they always with me whenever i need them. (is it true?) or i just too happy that i have 2 great damn fellas?

thank you for A and G, i ♥ you guys.. :)

friendship,
its just like peeing on your self
everybody can see but
only you can feel the warm feeling





good night world! have a great day.. and TGIF. :)

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a secret behind the flower

fiuhh !! Finally,i can finish my director's quiz. and this is the result.. ♥

i dont have any idea what about to post tonight,so i just put some quotes :)
anw,im so love with 21guns song. Green day feat American idiot Musical cast. Awesome!!!

check this out!

don't forget;
it only takes one smile :)
... to hide a million tears.

have to say good night. have a great day on this February.

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