broken-hearted girl

 Don't tell me the
SKY is the limit,
when there's
FOOTPRINTS
on the MOON.

maybe it was a hard decision to say "i'm just not that into you" but,i just dont have that feeling to you, even i admit it,you are super kind with me. i'm sorry. :(

being single is the best choice maybe..

nothing to share,feel so empty.. 

how many times can i
 break
     till i shatter
                       

 give me a break
let me make my own
pattern

mena left

♥,mena

is it you?

Its Hard To Wait Around For Something,
That You Know Might Never Happen
But It's Even Harder To Give Up Especially When It's..

      ♥Everything You Ever Wanted..

Avatar is great movie,but honestly it was not really nice FOR ME. and he bring me ferrero rocher. thanks for the time and the chocolate. thanks for the hand that could makes me warm in the cinema just now. but really sorry that i cant be part of your life. i know love can grow by itself. but is it possible i could forget him as soon as it is because the presence of you?

 

Don't make someone your everything
cause when there gone you'll have nothing.

 

 

 2010 is in sight. i need something new. :)

 

 

fyi,yesterday i just sign up a new facebook account that officially mine. hope that girl wont hack it again. i need peace..

i have to say bye or see ya! haha, people said bye means never meet again so im gonna say see ya! LOL

 

 

mena left

♥ ,mena.

 

jingle bells . .

hey fellas.. i miss blogging so much! hhe..

so many things i have to share. happy and sad..

the happiest thing is . . i extend my hair and now i have a very long hair.. love it!

and he's back into my life again. sometimes feelings fade away but i will always welcome him in my heart 

(am i too much?)

and exam is OVER ! feel just so FREE !!! yayyyyy! :)

the saddest thing is.. he loves someone else (i wont share much about it,it makes me sad and upset)

today had fun with angelin and gracia. its not a long time but yeah feel so happy can meet them. which is i cant meet them everyday cause we are not in same college. =(

ahh,Christmas is coming.. i love Christmas and Santa,please come to my house and give me little present.

i know its ridiculous (!) 

&& You're at the top of my Christmas list.
 

tomorrow still a holi-days! and will watch avatar with friend. cant wait babyy! hahahhaha..

why is loved by someone is better than loving someone?

i.M.y . .

  don't want to be your 

I never really knew you.
You were just another friend, but when I
got to know you, I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories that would only make me cry,
I had to forget my first love and give love another try.
So I've fallen in love with you, and I'll never let you go,
I love you more than anyone, I just had to let you know.
And if you ever wonder why, I don't know what I'll say,
but I'll never stop loving you each and every day.
My feelings for you will never change, just know my feelings are true.
Just remember one thing..
I love you.
Forever, I promise.

have to end today's blog..

have a nice holiday,fellas ! =D

mena left

♥,mena.

sometimes ♥ come around.

"There was nowhere to go but everywhere, so just keep on rolling under the stars."

cool band... THE KILLERS ! especially a white demon love song! i ♥ ♥ ♥ this song muchh! it's new moon soundtrack,even i dont really like new moon,but the movie have a cool soundtrack! i need some more in eclipse,please.. :)

today feel so relax,after an hour in bath room,blowing my hair,having manicure and pedicure.. it feels so so relax. :)

tomorrow will have the first final exam,which is Technical Operation Research. A lil'bit difficult but i should study tonight and tomorrow will go to Sutejo's house for study with friends.

and saturday Paulius will treat us at babura,yayyy! still dont know what to give as present. ==?

i want froyo,

i want strawberry yogurt freeze,

i want new shoes,

and i want you badly that cannot be compare with all above there. 

i wish i was your favorite girl,

i wish you thought i was the reason you are in the world,

i wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile,

i wish the way that i dressed was your favorite king of style,

...

but it turns out i means nothing to you.

so many hopes and wishes that i want,someone please..fulfill it. i never know how is happiness,the real happiness.. i never ever EVER feel it.

i just write what i feel now,cause my friend said that my blog never looks happy.. always sad,yeah its true but this is life...

{everybody wants happiness}

&

nobody wants pain

but you can't have a rainbow,without a little rain. ♥

today Gracia and Angelin will having Human Resource Management's exam, i just can say good luck and wish you guys can get A. :)

ahh,suddenly i want gets inked! like this,

 but i want my daughter name's there. pretty cool right? 

and i would like to make finger tattoo. ♥ it !

simple but meaningful. :)

i have to end today's blog fellas. have a good time. 

mena left.

♥,mena. 

imy,A..

i have to admit that i miss him badly.. :(

"You're the one that keeps me asleep

   on the nights where
 I could care less if I
 ever
 woke up again."

i just listen miley cyrus's song,bottom of the ocean.

I have to know why I had to lose you
Now you've just become
Like everything I'll never find again
At the bottom of the ocean..

You don't have to love me
For me to, baby, ever understand
Just know of all the time that we both had
And I don't ever wanna see you sad, be happy

I don't wanna hold you
If you don't wanna tell me you love me, babe
Just know I'm gonna have to walk away
I'll be big enough for both of us to say, be happy

i decide to call him just now. i know i did a stupid things,but i just wanna know how is he. guess what? he didnt reply me. i just set tp appear offline and i keep regretting myself why i have to call him. i just miss the way he treat me,the way he cheer me up,and the way i miss him. but, memories is a past. i dont want to share again. i just buried those feeling in my heart.

BIG SIGH*** 

and,i really hope my sister's problem is gonna be ok.. i just worried about her and yeah,i do pray for her.

anw,today is Paulius's birthday.. hha,just realize that he's turning 20 ! hhaa..

happy birthday again,pau.. =)

gonna end this chat,currently i dont have any mood for blogging.. so i didnt write so long like last time.

hope you guys enjoy the december. :)

Mena left.

♥,mena.

 

sunday FEVER !

pass this weekend with my fellas. totally F.U.N ! hha..

and yeah.. Monday is coming. (never love monday) i dont know why,many people said IHM,its true.. sure got little problem in monday!

last night someone tell me that he loves me,hmm i still hoping that he is the man that say those 3 words to me. but,the fact is,he didnt say that. the people that say to me is really beyond my expectation.

hmm,final exam will coming soon. not yet have any preparation for that. but i wish my mark will be better than last semester.

this coming wednesday i will have my extension hair,really feel excited. :) and my mom allow to make my hair wavy! yayyyy!! :D

this few days,i keep thinking why i should stop to doing something just for him? i just hate that i will be like this,i promise to myself and to him to not start it again,but now i start it again and think that im so fool to promise thing that not his problem at ALL ! but i will forget about it and start to do all i want.

i just find out this super nice picture,even the girl is smoking. but its lovely !

If I could go back to every laugh
{ But I dont want to go there anymore }

& I know all the steps up to your door
{ But I dont want to go there anymore }

i dont have any idea what to blog today,so i just write until here.

mena signing out

♥,mena.

pursuit of happiness.

 

it’s a bad night to be alone.but that’s just the way it goes.

 

Some Say That Holding On Is What Makes You Stronger
But Sometimes It Takes Much More Strength To Just Let Go And Move On

 

 

 

^{_{&& just remember}}
-->there's always a tomorrow.

 

 welcome december,just feel this month will be a blue december. is this relationship going well? or nope?

you know why i'm falling for you? because you always give me hope and sign and seems like you welcome my presence in your life. but now? seems like no hope at all,yeah.. nothing to lose,i know..

and

why when i try to forget you

you always start to notice me again?

maybe no more initial "A in this blog.

can i say goodbye now?

aww (!) its hurt before i say it.

but yeah,i will let you go,baby!

bye for good.

and please throw away your kindness,your signs and your care to makes me not love you,please?

i know //i'mjustasillygirl//

im the girl
------who always smiles.
im the girl
------who enjoys school.
im the girl
-----with the amazing friends.
im the girl
------that laughs the loudest.
im the girl
------that likes to be alone.
im the girl
------thats often alone.
im the girl
------whos addicted to music.
im the girl
------that eats what i want.
im the girl
------that other girls would kill to be.

well,its time to me to signing out

bye A.

♥,mena.

 

i ♥ you like i ♥ ferrero rocher.

you know what i really wait for? yeah,im waiting for my birthday.. 4 months again,still long but when it march you will think,why day gone so fast... but sure i will pass this new year,and his birthday on january. :)

hmm,even i have some problem nowadays,it wont makes me forget how he cheer me up.. thank you,A. you are so kind to me. and i hope november will end with love and happiness. and i hope this is not a dream. he he he . .

nowadays i really addicted to ferrero rocher,i ate a lotta this chocolate and i cant stop it. but i wont stop,cause i loveeee it (!) 

and i miss rain fall..

 

today i will spend my last weekend at home,too lazy to go out,
and just slacking on my bed. :)

idon'twanthimtobeperfect

i want him to l a u g h at me, trip me & help me up, pick me up
and then throw me in the pool, make me watch football for hours
and take me to the arcade and beat me in air hockey
most of all, i just want to be [ glad that he loves me ] ♥

im finding idea to make my birthday invitation.. any idea?

just wish you guys have a very good weekend. 

mena,signing out

♥,mena.

hate november?

you were online. we hadn't talked since what went down a few days ago. all of my friends had told me to be strong. so i sat there for ten minutes. just sat and sat. then just as soon as i was gonna break. you signed off.

is that a sign, or what?

this problem will never end. i don't know why she keep pestering on me,i don't know who is she and whats her point to make me like this. she is too much! and thanks to my friends that always supporting me.

and you,maybe you don't care with this thing. and hell yeah! i never ask you to care about me anymore.

no mood in blogging,and just wanna say have a good day all! 

♥,mena

am i suppose to say that i hate november?

i don't know why,but why the end of this month i just have those problem that makes me so so hate november..!?

vb project have been present,i don't know how to create a good project by myself,the rest of my group is totally not helping me,even they never ask! even the documentation they never care ! i just make it by myself and i cant complete it! dankkk!!!

i dont know how to tell to people but i just like want to going crazy and really want to cry because i did this project by myself,but my group will have the same mark with me,and if i want..i wont do this project! i would rather stop my study if like this. im not joking,ITnB is not cheap college,fyi !

i know this is call study,but its not summarizing,its not just simply type, it must use a lotta time and ahh,i wont keep saying and complain. but sure,i cant stand it any longer!

good night. no pictures and quotes tonight. just bye.

♥,mena.

je'taime

really have a lazy sunday,i just feel i want to hibernate whole day and weekend is over. start with hell monday,which is i never like as usual.. big sighhhh**

yawn (!) so sleepy.

i did something so bad just now,i drink 3 glasses of coke,2 glasses before lunch and a glass after lunch. my stomach is so so so unwell now. my bad!! :(

all my project still pending,argghhh.. why still cant finish it,really tired doing this project! even i feel tired and nauseated,i keep forcing myself to face the project,and now feel like losing my eye power when have to blogging. =.=''

hmmm,why we as human should have hatred in our hearts? i really hope that i don't have that bad feeling. i wish i just have love and peace in my heart,and im sure you guys also want those feeling. 

after blogging,i want to sleep until 10 and wake up fetch my mom.

at last,this my today's quote

Be yourself

It's not worth it, pretending to somebody else.

♥,mena

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

i just want to say that :

 I 

 ♥ 

NOVEMBER

:)

♥,mena.

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tomorrow will be my doomsday,sucks project will be submitted and yeah!! i hope that lecturer is going to resign! have to say,i really hate him,what to expect from us if he never teach how to do anything,just ask us to visit smartwebby.com/flash !!!! i really hope NEXT SEMESTER he won't teach our class again,too tired to make a PERFECT project!

don't really have a mood to blogging,so i just put some colorful quotes and pictures. :)

Love is complicated.
Most times, you aren't even in love.But one day,
there is gonna be that boy that knocks you off your
feet. When you find him, you won't ever feel better.

He loves you, you love him. Nothing can be wrong.

 

 

sometimes i do really want to spend my night with rain and tears. so many even abundant thing have to think and have to solve. life is not easy as you think!

end this life soon maybe will make me happy,too many thinks that outta my mind and damn! why have to be so hard!!!!

 

 good night fellas. i need rest. too tired to continue.

♥,mena